[aimeebell]

I thought I had no before photos that were at my highest weight, not taken from a safe distance, and without my oldest child blocking 70% of me. I hid from the camera. But I went out with old friends one night, the margaritas were stronger than I realized, and I actually allowed photos. Eight months later, a friend finally emailed me the forgotten photos. HOLY MACARONI! To anyone who thinks "just" 35 lbs is no big deal, well I think 35 made a huge difference in how I look AND feel.

On this very night, even before the margaritas were flowing, I said aloud that this would be my last "bad meal" for awhile. For me, that was huge, I never speak about my weight or what I eat. But I know that if I say I am going to do something, then I have to do, so I said it, and I DID IT.

I knew I was unhappy with how I looked and felt, but until I saw this picture, I didn't realize just how big I was. It's surfacing is perfect timing as I have been struggling with fighting old habits and stress eating lately. It serves as a reminder or what will happen if I stop fighting and just throw in the towel.

Sorry, I wish I knew how to add photos, but I think you have to have a photo bucket account and I don't. So, if you want to see them, check out the latest post in my blog linked below.

[TheBunneh]

Yeah....the other night I started going through pictures on my computer out of boredom. And found pictures of me from my high weight (or near it?).

WOAH. And these were somewhat flattering shots.

It sure makes me appreciate the 71-pounds-down-me. I think I was in serious denial of how large I'd gotten, but since I'm focused on correcting the issue I look at myself more honestly now. Makes me shudder to think what I'd have seen if I looked at myself that way back then....