Whats eating you..the tv show..feelings?
So..i watch what's eating you..and you know what..it doesnt make me more aware, it doesnt make me feel more aware of eating disorders, it doesnt make me be like "oh, i will never do that to my body." ..What it does make me feel is "maybe if i do what they do, i will finally get skinny".
I admit to being an ex-binger, ex-starver, ex-overeater and occasional binger..mostly starving and binging.. I battled it for years and i dont do it anymore..maybe except the occasional binge..but i find that watching these TV shows make me want to go back to it, even watching the Biggest loser, makes me look at myself and say "wow, im fat"
Argh, im so frustrated. I wish personally, that i wasnt so triggered by stuff like that. I just want to be able to watch stuff on tv without saying "oh i look fat, or maybe i should do that, or try this".
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