I am so mad at myself though it's not really my fault. I was going to "treat" (sorta) myself with a small black coffee from starbucks. DH said ok I'll take 2 creams and 2 splendas. I was expecting little packets they toss at you but they mix it in for you! Very helpful and nice but argh! So when I ordered I said 2 tall americanos (I didn't know short existed as tall was the smallest on the menu, another booboo) with 2 creams and 3 splendas. Thought ok I didn't know starbucks carried splenda... i'll sprinkle a little in there, but just a little as I am not drinking my calories right now and avoiding chemicals as best I can. He goes for each? And I say uhh *stammer* no altogether... still expecting my little Denny's tub of creams and some sugar packets. I get up there and he's mixed it in and I'm so embarrassed I'm ignorant I give him a weird smile and run. So I have no idea what the **** I have now but it's sweet as all **** and creamy. I might as well have gotten what I wanted.. a mocha. I am now thinking I turned my black coffee into a 300 calorie drink
And I am a total sugar addict and any non fruit sugar sets off my crazy omg I'm gonna rob the Hershey chocolate factory needs
So my first sip was ugh this is sooo sweet (as I haven't had any sweets for one whole month yay). Better try it again.. well maybe not that bad and my third was a jager meister chug at a frat party. I cannot control myself around sweets at all and it's really hard for me to detox off of them. It's like drugs. Shakes, crazy temper, the whole shabang
The absolute NEED to fullfill an addiction. So now I feel bad
I'll probably be storming up and down the hallway complaining about the paint on the wall for the rest of the day and make everyone miserable because I really want to down the rest and I know sipper DH won't even finish his let alone mine.
I told dh to take it away after i was half way done but it's right behind me 3 feet away >.< I am such an addict. I feel like a loser
But typing here has put a few minutes between me and it.
I tried to look up cream and couldn't get exactly the count. Sounds like it was possible 2 servings of whole milk.. which isn't bad but means I now have to think of this as a snack and I wanted my little fruit dish I make for my snacks
AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY COFFEE! lol. See total addict! All I can do is taste the sugar on my tongue.. wow. I do ok with crystal light but apparently not splenda. And I'm only drinking crystal light because DH is. I find I will eat/drink anything he does and I simply cannot do that. He has this amazing ability to add 20,000 calories to 3 ounces of chicken. I'm not even kidding. It's an absolutely amazing ability. An ability that will kill us but still I've never seen anyone cook like that (but it IS good).
If it had been black I would have nursed this thing for 24 hours, not chug it.
I use to drink back in college venti mochas with all the fixings chocolate whipping cream and shots of rasberry, down it in 5 minutes and go back for more. Caffeine has very if no effect on me, but I'm sure diet soda has tamed that part of me though I am not drinking that either right now.
Wow, I really went off. Might have been easier to go flog myself lol. Hope ya'll don't think I'm nuts now :P
You know what? I am sitting here secretly hoping you guys give me the ok to down them like water. I am expecting someone to come on here and go oh it was only 50 calories no big deal. It IS time for my dinner and I've already eaten plenty today and I would rather go have my veggies and whatever else I choose to than down this and sit here hungry. Fck it I'm gonna dump it. One little coffee should not freak me out. I'm also a penny pincher and hate throwing things out. I'm gonna go dump it and hopefully it was no more than a full calorie soda! And I'm gonna get my... hmmm.. maybe some broccoli!