I want to thank all of you for your prayers and thoughts. {{ HUGS }}
Tina... I am sorry I missed your post about your granddad. I am sending my prayers your way too. {{ HUGS }}
I had my granddaughters for the last two days... and I was WORN OUT !!!
One thing I am looking forward to when I lose some more weight is being able to keep up with them. LOL The baby can really stress me out. She can be a
HANDFUL !!! It is a good thing I love her so much... because she can really frustrate me.
Saturday is going to be VERY STRESSFUL for me. Taking food to other Grandma and family. Going to visitation of the passing Papa. So far I have only had to deal with the grandkids. I have not really had to face the reality of his death.
I am dealing with guilt too. I feel guilty being alive when I have abused/neglected my body for so many years.... when he took such good care of himself. I feel like I should have been taken ... not him. I deserved to die... not him.
PLEASE do
NOT tell me how wrong these feelings are. I KNOW... everyone deserves to live. It is just how I am feeling. I am owning my feelings... nothing more. I have to own them first... then let them go. Thanks for listening... but please don't try to validate me. I don't need validation... I just need to get these feelings out in the open to let them go. Plus.. I have brought this thread down enough just posting these feelings... I certainly don't want it to become a topic of discussion. Hope that makes sense to you .
On to a happier topic.
Terri... I love your idea of
"Snowflake Challenge" GREAT IDEA !!! I was headed toward a snowman theme so they fit hand in hand.
Please go ahead and keep it going. I appreciate you helping me out.
I want to announce the WINNER of our
Christmas Challenge .....
The winner is...
LEANNE !!!! Congratulations !!!!
Leanne.... I hope you have a sense of humor .... you'll need it when you get your prize.
I will put it in the mail Monday .... hopefully it won't take too long to get to you.
I think Leanne's total points earned was 76 !!!
You will all have to do better than that to win the
"Snowflake Challenge"
I intend to have my best month yet. I am going to EXERCISE regularly this month.
I AM GOING TO LOSE 10 lbs this month !!!!
I am happy to share that I LOST weight this holiday season. I went up and down several times throughout the month... but in the end... I lost 5 lbs in the month of December.
Is anyone interested in adding up how much weight we lost as a group in 2004?
My total for 2004 is
30 lbs !!! I hope to double that in 2005 ... that is only 5 lbs per month. Definitely DOABLE !!!! And I am going to
DO IT !!!
I owe sooo many replys and just can't get to them all.
But I do want to WELCOME ALL NEWCOMERS !!! So many of you.... Oadira,... Jibelle/Marcie,... Onetallmama/Jana,... TheRubySlippers/Ruby,.... on this thread alone.
And welcome back... Mary, Chris, Joyce , and Joanne.
Okay... gotta run. It is nearly 3am and I need to get some sleep. This was the only time I had to myself in a long time. I sure do miss all of you.
I sure hope some more oldtimers return soon too. If you are lurking.. please post again. Come join us in our new
"Snowflake Challenge"