1. better sex - yes I went there but I'm so self conscious that it was hard for me when I was in a relationship.
2. Clothes!!! and Heels!!! - At this time I wear pretty basic things (dark pants/jeans, basic tops in solid colors), but a lot of people come to me for fashion advice once I start talking about my love for all things fashion! I cannot wait until the day that I am able to wear vintage, and just pick up anything from the rack and look hot. Heels: self explanatory. I will live in them once this weight is gone.
3. No one will look past me anymore because I'm the "big girl"- I feel that I have been brainwashed throughout my life because I have always felt that men, **** people in general, think that I'm "cute", great personality, fun, but "too big". I have grown up feeling that I'm not worthy of an attractive man's attention or respect (this can also be applied to any person), especially when they approach me and looks are the only thing that matters when dealing with anyone initially. Thinking like this has damaged my self esteem but at this point I am beginning to undo the brainwashing. I'm somewhat comfortable in my skin now, better than any other time in my life but once I reach goal, I will feel invincible.
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