Seems like I never can find the time to post on this web site. Truly, I think part of the reason is that I feel somewhat like a failure when it comes to weight loss and maintenance right now. Do any of you ever look down, when you're in the bathroom going, and think "my God! How did I regain my weight?" I mean everything looks so floppy to me. I guess I have to remind myself that clothes cover up a multitude of lose skin problems, but I always thought I'd look so much better when I lost weight! It's not that I don't look slimmer, I do. It's that 48 year old skin just does not tighten up no matter how much weight lifting you do. Sadly, I don't have the $$ to do plastic surgery, so I'll have to be happy with how I look in clothes.
Interestingly, in the past two days, I've noticed the weight on the scale going down. It was, however, going down earlier this week then took a sudden, frustrating upswing for no reason I could figure out!
Since it was the weekend, I was weighing in much later than usual, but today was over a lb lower than yesterday, so maybe my weight is finally going to start going down. This morning, though 3 hours later than my usual daily weigh in, was down 4 lbs. from earlier this week. Someone told me the other day that it takes about 2 weeks of making a change for your body to start registering the change. It's been about 2 weeks.....hmmmm.
I also decided on Saturday morning while I was walking the treadmill that I needed to not only keep track of what I'm eating (as I've done since I started losing in Jan 07 and after I hit my goal in Dec 07) but also needed to start tracking calories--not part of my successful weight loss program. I read in a Biggest Loser magazine that in order to lose weight I should be eating about 1260 calories a day. I kept track yesterday, didn't eat all that I normally would, and was just under 2000 calories. Uh oh! Getting to that 1260 could take some doing! Yet, I think I've already had some food for thought.
I have promised myself that when I keep track of what I'm eating, by both measuring and calories, on Friday of this week, I can have a day for me. That is great motivation for me. I'm not really stressing about the calories. I want to eat as I have on my program as I want to know about how many calories I really am eating. I know to lose weight, I need to cut out about 500 calories/day. I can already see how that could be fairly easily done. I also have made the second step backwards toward my weight loss eating program--I've cut out a fat. So that's one fat and one starch I'm without. I can't say I'll desperately miss the fat, but I sure do miss the starch!!!! I'm a bread girl, that's for sure! Yet, I know that starches got me to a much higher weight. There's something about starches that make me gain weight. Ugh!
I also have a friend that's in my pool toning class that challenged me this weekend. She had bariatric surgery about 2 months ago and has lost almost 60 lbs now. I invited her to challenge me and to consider it a challenge for herself, too. She said this weekend she would walk on the treadmill for 1.5 hours (she usually would have done 60 minutes--30 each day). She wanted an hour and I pushed her and said come on, let's do an hour and a half. I took our conversation and told myself that I needed to walk 1.5 hours each day not just over the two days. Saturday, I didn't make it--did 75 minutes instead, but today, I made the 1.5 hours plus another 30 minutes (I was watching my recorded biggest loser show which I didn't know was 2 hours, rather than 1.5 hours. I told myself I couldn't watch it without staying on that treadmill). I hope my friend and I can continue to challenge each other. I also want to get back into kickboxing again. I need to spend a bit of time cleaning my work out room tonight to see if I can get my old kickboxing pad back out to use. I loved and hated kickboxing for the two years I did it. I hated how hard I worked; I loved the results and the feeling of accomplishment I had when I "survived" a 1.5 hour class. I am definitely looking for ways to get my tail moving and for ways other than walking on a treadmill or an elliptical. It gets old for me and then I have to push myself to work out.
Some days, I think, it would just be easier to be fat again. Sad, sad thought, I know! I love the way I look (with clothes on
. I love the size I wear. I love that others think I'm fit. I DO NOT WANT TO REGAIN the weight I lost! It's not worth the frustration, aggravation, and loss of the cool, great looking clothes I own
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