I've done a whole lot of mental work around weight, so it shouldn't be hard to write a letter. I do want to appreciate what it has done for me, how it has helped me to deal with emotions and situations. Life has had some mountains to get over so far, and I've had to build up some emotional muscles along the way. But I do feel I can finally move forward without using food to cope. One day at a time.
I got some Bio Oil for stretch marks and have been using it twice a day, and that's been time to touch my fat and acknowledge it. (I've got quite a lot of stretch marks.) This is me, the only body I have.
Maybe I'll take a bath, use some good lotion, write a letter, read it to myself naked in the mirror, and burn it. Perhaps with some sage. You know, making food and/or drink part of the ceremony might be appropriate. My problem isn't eating. It's over-eating. Food or drink is often associated with transitions such as death, marriage and holidays. I'm not sure what exactly would be appropriate for me, so I'll have to give it some thought.
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but I absolutely did some mentalizing (if that's even a word) to tell it goodbye. I decided that the fat wasn't mine - the real me (my dreams, thoughts, and ideas) didn't carry around fat cells so the ones I was hauling around on my body were simply not necessary - it was OK to let them go. Thanks for reminding me about it - I think I need to do a little more mental work to get myself past the nerves I've been having about being so close to goal.
