Oh dear, this is all personal and weight lossy and emotional and argh I hate feeling this way.
A very good friend did something to [intentionally] hurt my feelings. He half-heartedly apologized, but also kinda agreed to give me an explanation the next time we saw each other in person. Well, we did see each other, and he didn't give me an explanation, and this was on Friday {day 1 on of my two day drinking spree}. He is a very important friend to me, which is why this whole situation has me so upset.
Now I'm depressed, and trying not to show it to my husband, and I'm having major difficulties staying OP. The dehydration, the sour stomach, the emotional upset over this situation...it's all conspiring against me.
I know goal 1 is to stay away from the booze until I'm drinking for fun rather than comfort. We had "party friends" staying with us this weekend which led to a mild drinking {which always leads to "just one more drink" - which ended up being
way too many gin and tonics - until I'm txting above-mentioned friend and, when morning rolls around, I don't remember what we talked about and am too embarrassed to read it again!}.
So, I know what I need to do. I guess I just needed to vent and have someone listen. Skip the booze, take my mind off it with exercise, focus on me and my family, and accept that I've done all I can to patch up this situation with above-mentioned friend {and that conversing with him while drunk is a
really bad idea}. Right? Right....OK....I feel better now.