Hey guys!
I'm an awful person. I have stopped dieting so many times. I was on here a while ago and just gave up because I have no stamina. But I have just found out today that my mates and I are going on holiday after we graduate this summer. I'm really excited, however... I'm also mortified at the idea of being in swimwear! The lads that are going with us aren't the most tactful bunch, and even if they don't say anything to my face I know they'll say it between them. I know it's only lad banter but that isn't going to make me feel any better at the beach! It also doesn't help that they all know I've had a massive crush on one of them for the majority of university
ha ha! The last thing you want is your crush seeing you in your bikini. Ha ha. Nightmare.
So anyway, this has really motivated me to lose weight. However due to my annoyingly big boobs I usually have to order swimsuits at the beginning of the season (soon) so I can get something that fits! This is because only one store offers underwear/swimwear in my size and it runs out very quickly. So I've been looking on the website... and have come to a dilemma. Tankini or bikini?!
My mates are lovely looking. They will all be in bikinis. I'm not hugely overweight or anything, but I've definitely got a belly on me. So normally I would go for a tankini. But this was fine the last time I went on holiday, which was years ago when I was much younger. But now I'm 20 I feel that if I come out in a tankini I'll look a bit of a prude! Ha ha. I think that will make me feel equally uncomfortable! Particularly because the only one in my size is a plain, mum-style black one.
Oh and do you think a bikini with massive boobs will be worse than a tankini? I'm very self-conscious about my boobs too and I think I'd die if someone made a comment. But again, there's not much hiding them in swimwear either way is there? :S
So... any advice? I know I'm not going to get enough wait off by July for a flat belly, but how thin do you really need to be to pull off a bikini? Do you think its worse to have my belly out, or have my belly SLIGHTLY hidden in a mum's tankini? Neither is particularly sexy. Neither is gonna have that guy kicking himself for not snapping THIS up. :P
Yes, I'm pathetic. But please help! :P xx
This is the link for the tankini. You'll see what I mean. :/