hola chicas,
so i've had a horrible day. my boyfriend of almost 3 years and i broke up this morning. i've been a hot mess ever since. he's jewish and i'm catholic and he's becoming more and more orthodox and has been struggling with dating someone who's not jewish, as it is against the torah. we're both trying to find a way to make it work because we both love eachother incredibly, but he doesn't think there is a way. i'm absolutely torn, because we both knew we would marry eachother. i honestly thought we'd be together for eternity (gross, i know). it just sucks.
we actually already had a lot of our future planned out, and i can't really imagine my life without him. i'm not dependent on him, i was a complete person before i met him, and i know i will continue to be, but have you ever met that person who just makes you a better version of yourself? i feel like i lost that.
it's so hard because it's something i know i can't control. i've made a lot of compromises to try to do what i need to to help him work this out, but nothing seems to work. it all comes down to him struggling with his religion and he honestly doesn't think there's a way to make it work. which kills me, because deep down inside, i know there is, i just don't know what it is.
i'm also afraid of what this will do to my body, because i'm already ill. i've been throwing up all day and can't keep any food down. i'm in physical pain, i miss him so much. i've been crying so long my eyes are almost swollen shut. i can't even think of food right now. i never thought i'd be that girl, i always hated that girl in the movies, i wanted to slap her cuz she was annoying. maybe i need the slap now.
i don't know if i'm actually looking for advice or just needed an ear to listen (or an eye to read, as the case may be) but i greatly appreciate you tolerating my rant.