Had my weigh in this morning, lost .2lbs. New weight 200.6lbs. I'm just so sad and stressed out. I had a good cry over it in the parking lot and had another one when I got home.
I have been perfect on plan, did all my exercise (and then some), drank so much water I could float, every single thing that I should have done. And I got nothing for it. Again.
I know you are all so positive in cheering me on, I feel like I'm disappointing you as well as myself. I'm so glad I didn't gain, I would have lost my mind. I just don't know what more I can do.
My medical team still thinks it's my hormones and cycle readjusting in my body. I bought that excuse last week (barely) but not this week. I think they are just trying to be nice to me.
I'm staying perfect on plan and trusting my body and my weightloss strategies that got me this far, but really, I want to say screw it. (I really won't go off plan as I came too far to do that, but in my heart, I'm really sad and angry. That kind of pity is also what got me up to 300+lbs).
Part of being true to myself is telling you all the results of my weigh in so I wrote up this post to you all even though I really wasn't in the mood to. I feel like listening to loud music and crying my eyes out more. Not sure what either of those are going to do but I'm NOT turning to food, no freakin' way.
Thanks for reading and supporting me like you all do, it actually helped knowing I had "someone" (i.e. YOU all!) to go home and tell all of this to. I texted with my husband (he's at work) but didn't want to overwhelm him. He'll hear enough about it tonight.