[Amy23]

Originally Posted by SarahFairhope

Wow, what a therapeutic topic. I also can think back and attach at weight and that weight feeling with that moment. And thinking more on the subject, I am just now realizing that for so many important event in my life - I don't have pictures of myself doing/during them. I hated that my body did not reflect "me" and so I would just make documenting any of it just something unimportant to me. But it wasn't unimportant to me, I just hated how my body looked.

Same. Photos of me are few and far between as I learnt at a very young age (right around the time I started gaining weight) to skilfully dodge the camera whenever it was around.

I think I was doing it because whenever I happened to see pictures of myself I was able to see how fat I really was. But when photos are not in front of your face you're able to lie to yourself; and we all know the mirror lies!

[Amy23]

Originally Posted by Trazey34

I'm the oddball, I have NO idea what I weighed at certain parts of my life, simply because I never got on a scale LOL if you don't KNOW for sure you're fat, you're NOT FAT right??? RIIIIIIIIIGHT???? ha

Haha!

I constantly avoided the scale while I was gaining weight (a good 10+ years). When I finally hopped on a month or so ago I actually managed to convince myself that it was broken! I just could not accept that the number I was seeing on the scale was a reality. I went out and bought another scale and the number was the same. I didn't cry, but ever since that moment I've stuck to my plan like glue. Another failure at this stage is not an option. I will never be over 300 lbs again!