Wow. Two years since I made the decision to lose the 100 lbs I had gained 20 years earlier. It was April 20, 2009. I was coming up on my 50th birthday in October 2009 and decided that it was time. I was going to design a plan for myself and stick to it. At the time I had 3 motivating factors:
Sex. I gained 100 lbs between ages 30-31 and by the time I was 32 my dating life was over. Part of this was because of my career, but letís face it, I had kind of taken myself off the market. I knew trying to re-enter the dating world at age 50 was going to be difficult and I didnít want appearance to be holding me back.
Insurance. My company would likely be going out of business in the next few years and I knew purchasing my own health insurance when I was morbidly obese was going to be extremely expensive, if I could get it at all.
Perception of family. Yep, you donít outgrow family dynamics. I realized that even though I think Iíve had a pretty amazing life, to my family I was simply the fat one. My niece and nephew had only ever known me as their fat aunt.
At my one year anniversary I reported that I had re-entered the dating world. Some fun, a lot of tears, but as of November 2, 2010 I have been in a very good relationship. Only trouble is that he is an excellent cook and my weight loss has not only stalled, but creeping back up ever so slowly (4 lbs in 6 months). Time in gym has dropped to nearly zero, same with my weekend hikes as his hips canít take that kind of walking. However I have kept up my daily walks and WATP videos and we both bought bikes and ride on the weekends.
On the insurance front, my company is still hanging in there and Iím still employed. By insurance standards I am now simply overweight, and if I pushed myself, could get down to normal BMI if it becomes an issue.
Perception of family has changed, but as they live 5 states away and weíre all adults, weíre not really in each otherís day-to-day lives. It was gratifying to have my father tell me how much he admired my perseverance to take off this much weight, as he has always battled to keep his weight down. My always thinner sister is a bit disconcerted that we wear the same size clothes now.
Now that Iím at the 2 year mark, I have big decision to make. When I started this, I wanted to lose 100 lbs. Then as I approached that number, I set my goal 20 lbs. lower to get to normal BMI range. However, I was continually battling to get from where I am now to a lower number in my teens and twenties and I find a lot of bad eating behaviours are resurfacing now that Iím ďfightingĒ that same 20 lb weight loss goal.
So I have to decide whether or not to make the final push. Iím currently pretty content with my body size and shape and I seem to be able to maintain this weight range for the last 6 months while not living in the gym or denying myself sharing meals with the beau. My annual physical is next week, so those numbers may help me decide.