This is a two-parter...
First of all, I've lost just about 50lbs now.... sooo close to being in the 100s!!!
But a lot of times, I feel like I'm still as huge as I was before.
I started dating someone back toward the end of December, and he is a bigger guy, but not obese. He's also 6'2" which tends to make him look more lean anyway.
We go out to eat a good bit and he seems to always encourage me to eat unhealthy things. We haven't talked about the fact that I really want to lose weight or that I've lost so much already. He knows I go to the gym and work out a lot, so he knows I value healthy living.
Last night, we went to a Mexican place where everything is basically a la carte. I got one entree item and a side of black beans, and he's like, that's all you're getting?? So I try to deflect by saying I will eat too many chips/salsa anyway.
I want to just tell him I'm trying to lose weight and am trying to eat healthier... but I don't want to draw attention to my size....
which leads me to part 2...
Last night when we were sitting at dinner, a rather large lady came into the restaurant and he made a comment about her size. He wasn't trying to be rude, he just has no filter, so if he thinks it, he's going to say it. She was bigger than I ever was, but I felt so sensitive about his comment. Last night was the first time I realized I'm not like that anymore. My first thought was "she's not that different from me..." and then my second thought was "oh god... she is... I'm not like that anymore!"
It was a crazy revelation! I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm feeling closer and closer to being healthy. At the same time, I still have this awful feeling whenever a guy shows interest that makes me think "what would he see in me anyway?"
How have you ladies made your self image catch up with your weight loss progress?