Thanks for your comments ubergirl. I probably am conflating feelings and trying to see everything one way, and that's not how life works. When do just think of my weight loss, how I'm fitting into more clothes (I went shopping the other day and it was fantastic!), I feel really, really good.
It's when I think about school that I get down. It's good to hear about someone who went through it (your husband) and made it out alive...it's soooo stressful and there's no positive reinforcement at all. I've been dealing with this paper that my professor is having me redo for a
second time, and it's a subject matter that I really care about, so I've been struggling with that since January. It's a total ego blow, and it's been hanging over my head.
I just need to seperate the two out, and be proud of my weight loss because I have done a great job sticking with it, even though it's slow and hard! I have many grad school friends who go to therapy and say that it really helps, so I was thinking I should do that too, it would help with grad school stuff and the weight loss as well. But I'm really scared, and I just can't make myself call. I will someday, I hope! I just need to push myself.
