Wow. This weekend was exhausting... some personal issues popped up in my family, and I wound up talking to my mom until 3am last night, and then talking to my husband until who knows when, probably around 5am. Got up at 10:00am to get to church, and then drove 1.5hrs to my nieces birthday party, drove back, went to church, and now here I am. Needless to say I am exhausted and will probably go to bed soon.
As for eating, I had a small slice of cake and small scoop of ice cream, and didn't finish it. But it's bad because I have decided that I'm going just going to eliminate that sort of thing for my diet for now. It's not helping me and it ends up making me feel like I'm not really giving this my 100%. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers because this is definitely something I am struggling with. I'm moving on from the thought that as long as I can fit it in my calories... I want to eat food that is worth the calories, not try and fit junk within my calorie range. Other than that, I had some crackers and cheese as a snack before we ate at around 3pm (those late lunches kill me!). Dinner was salad, a small portion of angel hair pasta and tomato sauce, and a reasonable fist-sized portion of chicken with Marsala sauce, and 2 slices of bread. Often I eat fast, and in turn it makes me feel sick after I eat. Today I ate slowly and felt fine. I was not stuffed, but I wasn't hungry afterward. I'm probably not going to eat anything else today, maybe some raw veggies.
I also noticed today that some of my clothes are feeling looser than when I first purchased them not too long ago. My shirt doesn't cling to my midsection as much, and I just purchased it in March. My pants kept falling down a bit, and when I grabbed the extra fabric as I was standing it was a couple inches. I was surprised because I wore them not even 2 weeks ago and they were tighter... I didn't think I had lost that much weight already since I started, but I guess it is moving!
My mom has lost almost 75lbs. She started at the beginning of August. She's going for 100lbs in a year. I'm so proud of her... and talking with her really helps me because I know she struggles with the same things as me... she has inspired me to just get rid of the sweets. Because as much as I would like to think that I can keep it in check, I know that I am never satisfied with it. The fact that she has been able to give them up and not even have a taste for them anymore has encouraged me. Now I just need the strength to resist them. It may not happen overnight but I will keep trying. I don't want to play with fire anymore. I know that sugar is one of my biggest problems when it comes to eating.
OK, so now that I've written a novel, I'm signing off!!
