Who was I kidding?
 

I just found an old picture of myself. I looked huge...about twice my current weight. I remember when we took the picture, I thought I looked good.

Someone told me that Denial stands for

Don't
Even
kNow
I
Am
Lying

So true...

I've never liked photos of myself, but that said, just celebrate what you've accomplished and take a beautiful photo when you get to goal!

That happened to me. I exclaimed to my mom "why didn't anyone TELL ME!!!". she said, "we did!".

~CGH~

I know when I see the old pictures of me morbidly obese, my jaw drops. I can't believe it. Yet at the same time, I look at myself and think I haven't changed much. Total disconnect!

When I am heavy I am always too afraid to look at pictures of myself because I know it will make me cry so I just don't look!

Talk about denial. I know the place well.

I used to see photos of myself, the very few that I'd allow, and wonder why I looked so enormous in them. Just figured that the camera adds about, oh I don't know a few dozen lbs to oneself.

But the odd thing about it was, that my family or whoever else I was looking at in the pics, all looked the same exact size in real life as they did in the very same pics.

So I thought the camera only made *me* look heavier.

Funny thing is, now I look at pictures of me and think that I am HEAVIER in real life then I am in the photos. Someone please explain THAT ONE to me.

And choirglhotel, this made me giggle outloud:

Oh my gosh, I just read it again - and giggled outloud again. I'm sorry. I'm sure it wasn't meant to be funny, but that's just how it struck me. :)

I dont look at my pictures either. Im too disgusted. I like the little thing about denial though, makes sense.

Great acronym. But I do KWYM :)

I was going through pictures today of me at a convention last April....OMG I thought I looked great! So yeah I know what you mean

that's okay, it's funny now! LOL.

~CGH~

Oh thank you for saying so. It really IS funny - now. That "now" part being very, very crucial. ;).

My sister likes to trot out old pictures of me, now that I've lost some weight. I don't know why she gets such a kick out of it; I guess because she's been helping me lose weight (she's an exercise physiologist) and she figures I can handle the truth now. Which I can, mostly.

Tonight she handed me a whole stack of old photos. After I stopped feeling like crying for that miserable-looking version of myself, I asked her to scan a couple. They're great befores, after all, and I will never look like that again, so I can deal with them :)

I look in the mirror and I see a slender woman. Each day of my life, I feel like a slender woman. Then,I go clothes shopping or I see myself in a picture and reality slaps me in the face and I wonder "when did this happen?"

pandora i so hear you. I went looking for 2 and 3 year old pics of myself last weekend ( i was feeling bummed about myself).

I didnt even realize. I didnt see it! And I sure didnt let people take pictures of me (I've got like 2 full body shots from 3 years... and i'm posing or standing funny)

Seeing a picture of me was pretty well THE turning point for me. Like you, I thought I looked REALLY good that day. The picture was of me and a couple of friends--I couldn't believe how big I was next to them!