I was cleaning out my closet this morning to get clothes ready to take down to the plus-size consignment shop. I'm in an 18-20 bottom now, and about 16-18 top, so the 24s have to go! I was going through my hangers and found a short red-and-black-plaid pleated schoolgirl skirt in a size 20. Hmmmm. I tried it on, and it fits! It's a bit big, actually, I have to adjust it pretty regularly, but with a tucked-in (!!!!) slim-fit black tshirt it looks really cute. I've been doing a lot of biking for about the last 4 months and I'm developing really curvy, strong, muscular legs. So I decided to be brave and wear my little schoolgirl outfit out of the house.
I had to run to Home Depot, and let me tell you, schoolgirl skirts do not belong in Home Depot!
So after enduring the raised eyebrows there, I went across the parking lot. I needed to stop in the grocery store for dinner fixings. I was standing in the frozen food aisle trying to find what I was looking for and a man passed behind me and said, "nice skirt." I turned to look at him and he smiled at me, gestured, and said again, "nice skirt." I smiled and said "thank you," (mommy raised me well, it was total reflex) and he kept walking.
I stood there in the frozen food aisle and just grinned. Me! I got a compliment! On a SKIRT!! A skirt I was WEARING at the time!!
I've felt so bad about myself for so long, and I have had no joy in being who I am for so long, that I have been trying to be invisible when I'm out in public. This sexy, attractive, adventurous woman who feels visibly good about herself is new to me. But she gets compliments! From STRANGERS!
I just had to tell people who would understand how giddy I am about this.