A quick history: I joined about 4 years ago, counted calories, lost 20 lbs, quit and gained it all back and then some. About 2 years ago, I started counting calories again, lost 53 lbs, and was very obsessed. I obsessed over my food, and I constantly asked my DH "you like me better like this, right? You like me better than before, right?" This drove him crazy (because he liked me either way) and was really draining for me. (not to mention I was starting to cut calories lower than I really should have). I couldn't keep it up, and gained back 100 lbs.
Now I'm looking to try something new. I'm not looking to reach a specific goal weight - I think I've figured out where my body wants to be (at the start of my most recent loss I was in a size 16 jeans, I quickly went down to a size 14 and stayed there... that was another place of obsessive frustration for me, one that made me feel disgusting even though I wasn't) If I had to say a number, I'd say maybe 170 - 175.
My problem is I need some kind of plan to stick to. I'm a big fan of intuitive eating, but (I think) the same thing that made me obsess over everything while losing weight also makes intuitive eating difficult for me, and I go in the opposite direction of eating out of boredom, depression, what have you.
Recently I had a bunch of blood tests done. The good news is I'm not diabetic (it runs in my family, thats why I wanted the tests done in the first place), the bad news is my bad cholesterol is a little high. My doc suggested WW to me, and I'm thinking it might be a way to help me control what I'm eating without saying "No! You cannot grill steaks with DH tonight!" (we are both major grilling fans) I really can't afford the meetings or the online, because of the monthly fees, but I can afford the at home plan. And exercise is not a problem.. I actually love to run and want to start up again, and DH and I have a gym membership where I like to go
.So my question, to all of you At Home WW ladies out there, is do you think that this plan would work, to help make me more healthy without basically being obsessed that I'm not "thin enough"?
Thanks bunches!
~Fae
