Originally Posted by iowasteph2:
I just get kind-of down--today is my 2 year anniversary at my job. I love my job, but we haven't met any new friends in this city. We moved here from out of state, and I haven't met a single friend. I honestly don't know how to meet people. I just sat at home last night and moped. I know there are people worse off than me, but I just was feeling sorry for myself in a pathetic sort-of way!!

I know exactly how you feel! When I moved to the city here, I was looking forward to getting a job so very much so that I would have some friends. The job I ended up getting is a revolving door job, if you know what I mean. I am a very shy, quiet person so I often have trouble making friends, but it is nearly impossibly when I only have 2 weeks to do it. It is like speed dating. sheesh
I know I/you/we should probably be doing community activities or whatnot, but for me, those never work out well.

Kitty, yeah I was still up at 2 AM (and 3 and 4 and 5 lol). I am a night person by nature and stay up whenever I can. I can get soooo much more done at night than in the morning. My night job spoiled me rotten, but I have to be there at 8:30 tomorrow, so I had better be careful tonight. Today is a holiday here in Canada, so that is why it is still "weekend". Sleep wise, I do often have trouble sleeping. As I have mentioned before, I have regular nightmares. . .usually very disturbing ones that I can not get out of my head during the day. This makes it hard to sleep unless I am dead tired and hard to wake up. . .not sure if it is the level of sleep I am in or if I just keep hoping to have a good dream before I wake. Is definitely not as bad as it once was, though. I remember nights that I would dance around until I was absolutely exhausted just so I would fall asleep.


Well, this is it. My last real day here. Tomorrow (I hope first thing, I can not stand all of this waiting!) I will know if I got the place. If I did not, that is it. It is over. My only choice at that point will be to suck it up, and go back home. I really do not want that to happen. Closure would be hard to get and I would feel like I was going years back and such. If I do get the place, I will be moving as soon as possible. Optimally, it would be tomorrow night, but I have a bad feeling the landlord does not have that in mind. Tomorrow I also work days, so if my phone is back on, I will be calling and checking my messages all day. If I get it, will go over right after work and sign everything. Wednesday the mother in law arrives and that is why I am hoping that I can move Tuesday night. If I have to wait until Thursday, I would probably get a hotel for the night, but if I am trying to move Wednesday and she is here. . . :( Just do not know if I can handle the stress all together-heartbreak, wicked heartless person, moving, heat, TOM, et cetera. I just keep wishing and hoping and praying that this will work out. Maybe she will delay her trip. Am still very concerned that my husband is going straight from living with me to having his mom live with him. I have seen how she is to him and I will not be here to protect him. :~( I have never understood how someone could hurt someone over and over again and the other person just forgets. Bah, do not want to get into it all again. Have 9-10 hours to pack up the rest of this stuff and so I had better get boxes now. Going to be hard on a holiday, but hey, nothing is ever easy. Trust me. :p

Not sure when I will pack my computer, but depending on circumstances, I might not be able to check in before I do. So if you do not hear from me for a few days (maybe weeks), I am 1. busy setting up my new life on the other side of the city. 2. busy going back to my home in the states 3. busy running around in circles, bouncing myself off the rubber walls Do not think there is a #4.

Originally Posted by AmyMCGS:
Yes... this particular game of badminton involved a net, birdies, and a lot of running around. :lol:

:lol: Hmmmm... STILL could go either way. :lol:
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Well our week end in Stratford was wonderful the play was Fallen Angels by Noel Coward and it was very funny.
I stayed within my points eating in a restaurant all week end I feel that is a total victory. I was sad today when i went to WW and was down only one pound. Was hoping for more. But started doing the ole self talk and realized it isn't about the stupid number I have had a real victory because I went out and made wise choices and here it is today and I am back on program. So now I am congratulating myself.
Like you I wanted to be able to say I was down twenty pounds when I see my parents this week end so I was sad that I can't and realized what is a number and what difference is a pound. I should be happy! Hopefully you will see that three pound drop but if not feel so very proud of how far you have come.

Thought of you Cap. they had a coloring book in the Shakespeare store of The Faieries good luck finishing! My daughter is working on her PHD in English Lit also.

HH so did you find a place? Your tea sounds wonderful!

Thanks for being here ladies it is great to have a place to be ourselfs! And to admit our feelings.

Have a Marvelous Monday!

Ah...so this is the world on the other side of The Faerie Queene.... So bright. So lovely. Lacking in any Spenser-cloud at all. Beautiful. Just...beautiful. *weeps*

That's right ladies! I have FINALLY finished reading The Faerie Queene. Now, not to deceive any of you, this text is 1100 pages long...but for my comps, I only had to read the first 562 (books I-III).

...er...my cat's head is under the couch. *blink*

Anyway. I'm very happy to have finished this damn book. It wasn't that the literature was terrible...it was just that it was so much to get through. Whew. And the last few lines were very helpful in answering my question, "What should I do next?" Spenser suggests, "Now cease your worke, and at your pleasure play..." Well, if Spenser tells me to do something, I'm sure as **** doing it. ;)

HH, I really hope everything goes well for you. I've got my fingers crossed and am praying for you. Whenever you get a chance to hop onto a computer (maybe at a local library?), let us know that you've got a place to live! I know this is such a difficult time for you, but I for one am very impressed and proud of the way you're handling everything. I don't know if I'd be as strong as you've been through all this. Good luck with moving and I hope you are able to get the apartment you're after.

Luflic, your daughter's getting her PhD in English lit? How cool! What's her area of focus? And you know...a coloring book of Shakespeare's fairies would be much more interesting to me than some of my comps reading list. I wonder if I could convince my examiners to change the exam to include all kinds of Shakespeare coloring books. I can color really well! ;)

All you other ladies, have a great day. I'm off to "at [my] pleasure play." Well. Spenser said it. I can too, right? ;)
~Amanda

Her focus is Childrens Lit. Hang tough girl the reading will get better :)

Hi everyone!

Today was a pretty good day. I was bad this weekend, and didn't really count points on Friday, Saturday or Sunday. I know I went over on Friday, and I know I didn't go over on Saturday, and I'm not sure about Sunday :)

Today though, I did sooo good so far :) I changed my morning meal to oatmeal, and wow, it just kept me full and NOT hungry until close to lunch time! I love it! :) and all I had was a half of a cup! Right now, I am sooo stuffed, so hopefully I wont eat anything else today, and I'm right at 28 pts :)

I didn't exercise this morning though, I was up every hour or so to pee! It was annoying! I didn't get ANY sleep last night, and I was too tired to get up. I didn't think I drank that much water last night, but I guess I did. I am not doing that again tonight. And it sucks, because I cant sleep if I have to pee. LOL I used to wet the bed when I was kid because I was in too deep of a sleep and wouldn't get up, so yeah, I cant stay asleep now if I have to pee. lol thats a little TMI, but oh well :)

And I was happy to see that the hamburger buns I bought this week are only 1 point, so woohoo! :)

I did though, walk on my lunch, and it was over 90 degrees here, so thats good right? :)

WB Lori!

Maggie - glad to see that you are out of your sulky days! We're all here for you!! And I think 10 or 11 pts would be a good estimate of the salad. Hope it was good!

(((HH))) you're also in my thoughts, and good luck with everything!

((((everyone else))) Hope you all had a great day!!

Helloooooo Ladies!

I'm having an interesting monday... got stuck in the elevator at work for 45 minutes.... swamped at work.... then got stuck in the middle of my best friend and husband's stupid feud... crazy....

but i went to the gym and worked out... going out to dinner with my dh shortly....

MAGGIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm SO happy to see you decided to stay with us! whew...i was really sweatin' that fat chicks with fire thing!

LizzyG: that is a great idea! i love oatmeal... i need to buy some more! yummmy!

Whoops! gotta go! dh is home!

Congrats on the workout Diva! I bet it helped you feel a little better, especially after having to play monkey-in-the-middle. Man...I hate when things like that happen. It's hardly fair at all, is it? But working out definitely can help! :) And I cannot believe you got stuck in the elevator for 45 minutes!! Are you claustrophobic at all? Generally I'm not, but then I've never been stuck in an elevator for that long before. Once the elevator I take to the English department was too full (I was stuck in it during the lunch rush) and it ended up going to every floor twice before finally letting everyone off. It was really freaky actually...lol. But it didn't last 45 minutes. Maybe 10. Sounds like you had a bit of a rough day! Hope dinner is great for you!! :D

And can I just say I really love watching ****'s Kitchen, but it's definitely important to eat before watching?? Lol. This show cracks me up, but if I watch it on an empty stomach, there's no hope for me. ;)

Have a great night ladies!
~Amanda

Has been a rough day, but I expected it to be. Got about 15 boxes, but all very small ones. Still have some big things that I need to pack like the computer/monitor, et cetera. Have packed mostly all the little things and have packed the scale. I wanted to wait it until last, but being a procrastinator, I always want to wait everything until last. Am not keeping track of points right now, anyway, and it is TOM and plateaued. . .so a week of not weighing might do me some good. :dunno: Cleaned the bathroom up quite nicely and next is the kitchen. I just hate cleaning the kitchen/always have. No idea why. I am sure it is something psychological going back to when I was a kid and the oven was a place to store all the pots and pans, paper and plastic prevailed over metal, and instead of milk, eggs, butter the shopping list usually was burger king, pizza hut, subs. Am really going to have to get over it living alone. Especially if I get this place-it has no dishwasher! =-o

Had a mini-lash at my husband a bit ago. Was just in a really sad mood and he walked in out of nowhere and my stupidalwaysdaydreaming mind thought he was going to hug me. He did not, and I was just so mad at everything. So he said something and I said how mad and hurt I was that he was not helping me pack or move. Was not screaming, but was definitely angry. Anyway, will not get into the whole conversation, but I think he learned never to get too close to a PMSing woman whose heart you have broken as she is packing up memories of her life with you in insane temperatures. Bah. I decided to tell my family but am going to wait until tomorrow. If I do not get the apartment, I am going to move back home, so I certainly will have to tell them. Besides, as everyone keeps telling me, keeping things inside is not good for you. So, if I get my own place and move I will also let them know. There are a few reasons that I came up with this decision, but anyway that is it. I just will make it very clear to them that I want to try things on my own here and that I do not want to get into details.








Much later. . .
Well, it is nearing 1 here, so I most definitely need to get these hippo hips to bed. I had a few episodes of "Coupling" taped and was holding off watching them for my new place for the period between moving in and getting cable. I gave in and watched them tonight and they just cheered me up. The ones I watched were pretty romantic, but did not make me cry-just smile a lot. Do not regret watching them. . .who knows when I will get a television? In approximately 9-10 hours, I should know which direction my life will be going. The entire course of my future depends on this one application. And there is not a thing I can do about it but wait. I have been thinking of some good that would come if I have to move back home, but I really really really want to get this place. Will my husband and I ever get together? I would like to hope so, but realistically the chances are bleak. But if I go back to the states, I will always wonder. Can not stand this waiting. Am going to pee my pants when the phone rings (if they turn my phone back on grrr). If my phone is not turned back on, I will have to wait until my coffee break and check messages or call the landlord from the payphone. I remember the last two times I felt this nervous. One was the night before I started my first job. My mother had lost my social security card and birth certificate which I needed. I could not do anything at all. . .just wait and hope and wait and hope. The second time was the night before I first went out with my husband. I was so nervous that in the shower, while shaving my armpits, I dropped the razor and cut well. . .the smallest part of my 32C ;). Yikes. Bled like crazy. Thought I would die from loss of blood heh. Oh, and I definitely was nervous the night before I moved up here. Just had no time and wanted to make it on time, but needed sleep desperately. Finally got 2-3 hours around 7 AM or so, making me late. I envy people who see something they have no control over and feel a relief. The "*shrugs* Nothing I can do about it, no sense worrying" people. I try to feel that way, but I just hate that there is nothing I can do about it. Truly, my entire future depends on this. . .it is a major fork in the road.

Had better get to sleep or I will sleep through the life altering phone call. ;)

I get out of work at 3 tomorrow (5 EST) so 3:30 if I come right home. . .4:00 if I go to sign papers, and probably not until around 7 if I find a u-haul for last minute sturdy boxes for my fragile stuff and take a cab home. Have to find movers or movers and plane tickets and a vet before I move, so will keep my computer hooked up and let you sistas know. I know I am way OT here, but I have a feeling we sistas will be together for quite some time, so it is important to see each other's major events and ups and downs, right? How am I ever supposed to get to sleep? heh

Hippo~ ::::HUG:::: Please PM me or IM me or whatever if you want to talk while your computer is still hooked up-- I'm often online late at night, too. I'm thinking of you today and praying that everything works out for you.