The truth is though I know I should be looking at the positives, I can't find any. I mean, last night I was wondering why I moved out. I miss my puppies, I miss my mom, I miss having someone to come home to, even if they are doing something else, when I go home to my apt, I am lonely, its empty, no dogs to cuddle, nothing.

I hate when I feel so overwhelmed with loneliness, like I do now. And now my best friend is going away too. I don' thave many friends, I lost all my HS friends and I didn't have too much time in university to make new ones, jsut a couple, some not really worth keeping. she was a true blue friend. And of course, my b/f somehow contributes to that.

I wish I could close my eyes and make the past 8 months disappear. I'd make v. different choices.

I would have stayed at Trans Alta, not gone to the shelter, would have not dated b/f - too much pain and attachment. Would have travelled instead of moving out.

Well, its a good thing its almost time for my long trek home, only 40 more min.

Thanks Jen, for thinking of me though!! I think I am in a real rut right now.....

Hey Kim, can I jump on your boat again? I think I can't tread water much longer..... ;)

B/f just called to tell me that he wont pick me up but wants me to walk to his place after work cuz its shorter for dinner. Not sure I can do that, am feeling v. sorry for myself right now, and I think I need to vent. Hopefully the walk will help....

Belle

Thanks for all your understanding...
 

Belle

BIG HUG FOR BELLE!
 

Belle, honey, I'm so sorry you're down. I think it's all perfectly understandable. I think the best way to handle your b/f's sister is to sit down with him, say something like, "Look I know your sister's going to be here and she's important to you, but it's important to me that we still have some time together, too." I wouldn't think that he would blow you off she because she was there, and I would think that she wouldn't want to be completely smothered by him, either, the whole time she was there! Maybe today happened because she did just get into town and he wanted to catch up with her. If he wanted to do that alone, you really can't blame him. And inviting you to dinner did show that he wanted to include you in her visit.

Hormones do funny things to us! :dizzy:

As for living on your own, enjoy it! Remember how much you wanted to be on your own. Maybe you could get a puppy or kitten? Training can be tough ... I adopted older dogs because I knew I wouldn't be able to devote a lot of training time to them. When I got them, Toby was 8 months, Stella was 1 year. I've had Toby for 5 years ... he was my lifesaver through all my sad, lonely times! (That still happens now, and those two dogs give the best hugs!)

Speaking of puppies, I have to go home and feed mine. Then I'll probably come back here and work! Awful thought, but I have no choice.

Hang in there! And BIG HUG! :D