I'm having issues. I'm venting. I feel a little too "new" here to vent, so forgive me... but I'm watching Saturday School and bored out of my skull, too... just can't help it.
Here goes: Trying to eat so that it's a weight-loss day AND so that I eat enough satisfying stuff that I don't fall off the wagon at night or the next day has become a bit difficult. That's been my biggest struggle of late--I manage to be good, good, good--and feel good about it--but I get hungry (I
think genuine hunger) at night or even the next morning, and before I know it--even if it's "good" food--the calories are no longer reasonable for someone who's trying to actually lose weight.
I feel pretty stable--I don't THINK it's emotional eating, though I have been known to sabotage myself in the past and I keep a vigilant eye out for it.
I think it's just about numbers. I think I'm at the point where I actually have to be on a "diet" to lose weight. Bummer.
I've lost maybe 60 pounds over the last year, I genuinely didn't look at the start, and it has been all about lifestyle change (step one, no fast food; step two, no eating in the car; step three, portion control; from the beginning, working in more whole foods, and out with the worst of the refined crap...). I've been eating 2300-2500 calories a day for the last 6 months and still losing, but more and more slowly.
I've been trying to push that number down, and sometimes for days at a time it's fine, but eventually I fall off the wagon and end up not making wise choices (not binging, by any means, but not planned, either), at the end of the day or even for a day or two in a row. Though it's not a backsliding disaster on the scale by any means, it's not exactly conducive to weight loss either.
Anyway, there will be three of us gals hanging out in the country this weekend and working with/training dogs, and all three of us are dealing with significant weight issues--one counting points on weight watchers, one who had gastric bypass about a year ago, and me doing my own thing.
We get along pretty well--it will certainly be active and fun. I wonder if it will turn into some sort of weight-loss retreat, though... don't know how I feel about that... Sharing and Caring are not always my strong suit, though I do so love to talk through "issues"!
I packed food for myself, but left dinner open. With all the running around I'm going to be doing, there's the potential for a nice healthy, active weekend... I'm trying to remember that I need to eat so that I don't come home starving on Sunday night, especially with the other two women being on fairly restrictive regimes. Wish me luck.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Whole Foods chat for Oct. 16-22, 2006
this is the first time in a long time that I am truly ready to make a commitment to getting healthy. As you can see from my signature info, I am on a journey to be a mom - which I hope to get started next summer. I've learned enough in my many years of unsuccesful "dieting" that I just have no interest in being led down that path anymore. I want to live a WHOLE life - with real foods and healthy exercise. So, here I am!
