Chunkahlunkah Wow what a great day of 8000 - unintentional steps! Congratulations on your new low Most of all I love your pbutter experiment! "just a really even feeling" is golden. I love the idea of eating something that shuts off the appetite. That's gotta be the mother lode of maintenance. I think it's that feedback from our body that is so essential, yet we try to fight against and control the natural tendencies of our bodies--learned behavior, esp for peeps of the female persuasion, imo. Can you make Pho? We have it at work once a week & there is a long line to buy it. Your mention of pbutter gave me the idea to add some to my stir fry along with the tamari & toasted sesame oil. Yum!
flower123
Wed
B eggs, avocado, coffee & lightener
L out all day, so am bringing a peanut butter B-up bar & apple
D
S eggs, salsa
Your mention of pbutter gave me the idea to add some to my stir fry along with the tamari & toasted sesame oil.
Pb in Asian style dishes is so good!
I don't know how to make Pho. It's one of the meals I've so far been content with buying it at restaurant bc that seemed cheaper, but I should look into whether it really is. My soup repertoire could use some expanding.
So, remember that coding class that I complain endlessly about? I'd considered not going to class today--was feeling so frustrated with it--and others must've felt similarly bc only 5 out of the 10 of us were there. I'm glad I made myself go. The professor recently asked us for feedback, and today he announced that he'll be making some significant changes that will really help. I'm so happy!
I didn't get much sleep last night, so I'll probably make a really early night of it, like 8 o'clock early. I can barely keep my eyes open.
TUES
B: tea with milk and sugar (caffeinated - ugh, I will NEVER learn)
L: my homemade soup with 2 mini meatballs and shredded parmesan
D: another big pb sandwich with a glass of milk
S: a cookie during class
Calories = 1357
Exercise = 2 mi walk
WED
B: 1 slice of whole wheat bread with 1 serving of pb
L: 1 taco (free! ). From a taco truck. Good but not amazing. I expected more.
S: ice cream
D: I haven't eaten it yet, but I'm 99% sure I'll have my soup thing again, so I'll show my calories including that.
hi I'm back (as Jack Nicholson said in the shining )
Chunkahlunkah congrats on the new low. I am not surprised. The amount over for last week was minuscule. You really are rocking the weight loss ! Soon to be in the 120s. That is SO exciting. You will qualify for the "featherweight" thread on 3fc. Love the pb experiment. what can be better than a "really even feeling"?
I agree re pb in asian dishes. I had a great recipe for sesame peanut noodles that I got from the owner of a restaurant. Making Pho sounds like a great experiment. Congrats re: the coding class. What a great thing to learn. Cudos for sticking with it until the teacher makes some changes.
Sundove, I agree with you about fighting the natural tendencies of the body. Or for me, its not listening to and respecting it. I never thought of it as something especially effecting women. But I get why you are saying that. Adding pb to the stir fry, especially if it has mung sprouts in it, sounds amazing. You wrote that you were picking rosemary from bushes. Up north it dies in the winter. I cannot imagine seeing a rosemary bush in person. Re the sparrows, our loss is your gain as they fly south.
Today I promised myself I could eat something good for having gotten through a difficult Retinal specialist appointment. The apt took 3 hours and 45 minutes. it was 3 1/2 hours before I got to see the doctor who was running absurdly late. I felt downright annoyed after 3 hours. But I got through the apt. Then I drove very carefully to the store. They put 3 different kinds of drops in my eyes for the exams. The calories were high. But Its what I promised myself I could do. I wish the flatbread pizza for one had been good. Seems they stopped carrying the one with refried beans and jack cheese. I will call the company and find out if they stopped making it.
flower123 Hope you got good results from your eye exam & no repeat will be necessary for a good long while. Sounds like a marathon. And bummer that the promised treat didn't pan out. Was it TJs? Some of those flatbreads are so good! (But your own recipes that I've read here sound better ). I looked up the range map for the 2 sparrows that we see here in winter. Seems the White-crowneds migrate through your area with some staying through the winter along Long Island Sound. They're the ones with the neat black and white stripes on top of their heads. I would really miss seeing wild things. Do you see Snow Plants? We have them up in the mountains out here, those red flowers with no apparent leaves.
Chunkahlunkah Well, the universe smiled upon you for being part of the half who showed up to coding class. I give the instructor some credit for being open to student feedback. Hope there's a good fix soon enough to spare you.
Yesterday was unsettling for me, and I ate the feelings before I realized what I was doing. There are a lot of impending changes in my personal & work life, and I long for a week to step back from the day-to-day busyness & take stock . My dental school appt went ok--I got accepted--as he said, my issues are "mild'. I'm unsettled about it. The student was so young. Some of my crowns are probably older than him I didn't care for the precepting dentist who made poor eye contact--forgot to ask if he will always be the precceptor. They did a full set of oral xrays--23 pictures using a frame thing that was uncomfortable. No biggie, but the cumulative effect was a sense of unease. I will go for the 3-4 hr exam in 2 wks. If he proposes a crown replacement or filling, I'll decide then whether to continue.
Once again brushing self off for a new day.
B coffee & lightener, eggs, avocado, salsa
L salad, chicken, feta, herb, evoo coco aminos
D turkey chili, feta--extra serving
S apple, B-up bar, protein shake
All in all not a bad day. I need a plan to deal with hunger catching up with me in the evening, when i am on plan. I think that some hunger will be part of my life if I am going to lose weight even slowly. The first thing is remembering to 'sit' with the hunger and be curious about it. Mindfulness 101
PS flower123 I just looked up birds in Vermont winter and found this tidbit, lol. The post office created 4 Forever stamps celebrating 4 winter birds--Black-capped Chickadee, Northern Cardinal, Blue Jay, & Red-bellied Woodpecker. The forever refers to the price, I think, but it looks like they lined out 'forever', acknowledging that these birds' existence can't be taken for granted. I'll try to attach the pic of the stamps.
QUECHEE, VT — In the midst of winter, when leaves have fallen from the trees and snow covers the ground in many areas, the lively sights and sounds of resident birds can be a welcome treat. The U.S. Postal Service celebrates these beautiful creatures with Birds in Winter Forever stamps. http://postalemployeenetwork.com/new...ed-in-vermont/
Sundove thanks for asking about the eye appointment. The specialist pretty much confirmed my thoughts which were contrary to the Ophthalmologist. I "probably" do not have the horrible thing the jerk was certain I have. I know I don't. But the jerk ophthalmologist shhhhed me when I tried to explain. Then he further demeaned me. So I went to a specialist... again. The first time that practice sent me to a specialist, he also doubted I had the dreaded dx. But the jerk Opthomologist refused to hear me. even though the records were right there. So I turned to my GP MD who set up the retina specialist apt for me. She wanted my intuition confirmed. As did I.
Thanks for the info on the stamps of VT birds. These stamps are very current. The date of issue seems to have been 3 weeks ago. Interesting that the "forever" is slashed out. I want to see if the actual stamp has the slash.. I didn't know those birds, other than the chickadee. stayed in VT during the winter. Quichee is southern VT.. I am in northern VT near Canada. They are 2 different zones. I wonder if these birds hang around in Northern VT. The sound and sight of birds migrating south is awe some. Although a bit sad to say goodbye to them for 6 or 7 months,.
We do not have snow pants here. I just looked it up. They can be found only in CA, NV and OR. Not even WA state has them
You wrote about impending changes in personal and work life. Will these be challenging even when the changes are in place? In the meantime, I am sorry you are going through the changes. I completely understand turning to food during transitional times. They can be so stressful. I hope the food was good and felt nurturing, calming or whatever your need was atm.
re the dental school... congrats??? I know you will listen to your instincts re: this. After the next meeting, if it doesnt feel right, you will know.
Chunkahlunkah hope your day is going well. I seem to remember Thursday is your day to go out with the people in your class. If so, I hope you are having a good time. You must feel so great having lost all this weight. Major cudos to you
Today I stayed on plan. An amazing healer in Thailand offered me a beautiful long distance healing. She is very magical and accomplished. She knows I cannot afford to pay. And she knows I love her beautiful work. So she offered for free when I let her know the events of previous weeks had knocked me down. I actually asked her which of her many youtube videos she would recommend for my current circumstance. She told me that. And then sent me a private message offering me this beautiful healing. She gave me a recording of her lovely healing she did for me. Even before receiving the recording, I felt the unmistakable sign that she had done the work. I know this is all quite woo, But that's my life, lol. anyway, today I stayed on plan. If one considers a bag of bamba being on plan So, there was a lot today to celebrate.
Coffee 200
B peaches 200
S Bamba 480
L salad spring mix cooked cabbage, carrot, onion, feta and BHF Blue cheese dressing 240
D chicken with vegetables 300
1420
edited in at 3am. It's a good thing grocery stores are closed now. I ate dinner and have been craving since I finished. So grateful I do not live near an all night store
Flower I hope you don't ever need the services of that ophthalmologist again. Good that you followed your intuition. Will you need to keep monitoring the issue or did the serious problem get ruled out once and for all? I hope it's the latter. How wonderful that you received a gift of healing after you asked for guidance with choosing a youtube. As for 'wooo', there's a lot out there that is not understood. Eventually Western medicine catches up and 'verifies' what other models already knew. It's a gift to be open to any model that works. And, it's generally acknowledged in Western medicine that a good part of healing the body is accomplished by the mind. Just my 2 cents
My change issues are the ones that accompany impending retirement. Most of the time I'm beyond excited and can hardly wait. But there is also a distancing process I'm experiencing in my workplace. It's a bit alienating. I look forward to spending a little more time with age cohorts. Going to a new dentist the other day accentuated the feeling.
Btw, there's a way to look up bird sightings in your area either current or historically, in case you're interested. Being a rabid, avid birder, I acknowledge there may not be that much interest ebird is a massive global database of bird distribution, run by your neighbor to the south, Cornell Lab of Ornithology. it's user-friendly and fun to explore. I was surprised at the diversity of birds that have been spotted in N. Vermont over the years, in January. https://ebird.org/explore You can look up your county, or region.
Chunkahlunkah!
Yesterday went ok until I got some notification while at work about my mother having some issues. All quiet for now, the forecast is still for a weekend to renew the spirit
I went out for my first TX bbq Thurs night! It was late, and the place was unfortunately out of brisket, which is what everyone's told me I have to get in TX. They were also out of ribs (both beef and pork). I ended up getting chicken and venison sausage instead and a couple of sides. The meats and sides weren't all that, tbh. The sauce, though, was killer. I'll have to go back earlier in the day sometime to get the popular meats that sell out. In a couple of weeks, we're going to a highly regarded place for bbq. Maybe that one will wow me.
I ate too much yesterday--snacking all day while I was writing. My mistake there was I never ate a proper meal and just ate carby foods lacking in protein, so I never felt full. I'm once again reminded of the importance of planning ahead.
Flower - I'm glad the specialist helped and that you don't have what jerkface said. Demeaning people need to fall off the planet. As far as woo goes, I'm a spiritual person (although I won't advertise that fact in certain crowds ), so I'm open to various methods.
Sundove - Yeah, that's a problem with inexpensive places like that dental school. They tend not to treat their customers as well. I really loathe the attitude among many in our culture that respect and kindness are conditional on cash.
Time to get in some work. I'm hoping to be productive all day so that I finish early enough to hit the gym and then go out. I hope you have an enjoyable Saturday!
SAT
B: tea with milk and sugar
L: ravioli
D:
Calories =
Exercise = 3.6 mi walk
Last edited by Chunkahlunkah; 10-13-2018 at 03:09 PM.
Sat
B eggs, feta, salsa, coffee, 2% milk
L salad with chicken, vegs, evoo, coco aminos
D stew of ground turkey, butternut squash, corn, black beans, salsa, mole powder; broccoli & carrots.
S apple, coffee with splash of protein shake, hot choc
hi all this will be short because I have to go to sleep. Sundove I will have to continue going yearly to an ophthalmologist. I have had to do that since I was in my mid teens. Because my dad had acute glaucoma. So far so good in that area. and also I do have several other things wrong with my eyes that require yearly monitoring. That's why the other dx was in question. The serious problem was not completely ruled out. But she thought its unlikely that I have this condition. I will choose a different ophthalmologist.
As for impending retirement, its a big transition. So I do understand. Its going from a known life, to an unknown. And that is unsettling for people. Unless they have something new and exciting already lined up. Even then I think it would be a challenge. Re the new dentist situation, someone once told me that the mouth is a very sensitive place to have people working. It can bring up vulnerabilities. Causing someone to feel a bit unsettled. Thank you for the bird link. I am going to look into that.
Chunkahlunkah awww too bad they were out of brisket and ribs. I hope you do get to go back there earlier in the day. The next place sounds great. I would LOVE to try good TX BBQ. Especially brisket. Although i do not eat meat. Sounds so good. I totally get it that you ate snacky stuff during the day before the BBQ. Anticipation Ahhh I just learned something about you. You are not adverse to woo I have to hide it most places. I spent a couple of years studying "clairvoyance training". It resulted in a non denominational minister's licence. Honestly I didn't know about the minister thing for the first year. But after 2 years that.s what people become. However I never used it. I do not want to marry people. I just took the training to get a better control over what I had been doing all my life. Its the way I was born. And I had to learn how to control it. Or learn a bit better how to do that. So it was not controlling me. Okay, now I just gave TMI. I hope you had a good Saturday.
Today I messed up big time. I had a big cookie, 2 packets of peanut butter and quite a few Bittersweet Chocolate callets for dinner. The only positive thing I can say is that when I was overweight I would have eating dinner on top of the other stuff. Now I had no trouble making that my dinner. I am bored with the foods I eat. Need to come up with some new foods that I like. Chicken and vegetables every day is boring. I need to revamp. Also this is a challenging time of year for me when all the vegetation is dying. Leaves falling off the trees. Windows closed until next June when it will be warm enough to open them again. And the sun sets early here. 6:10 PM
Flower123 Thank-you for the kind words ! I'll be interested to read what you come up with to you sparkle up your meals. Good luck! Short daylight sure adds to the challenge. I try to keep in mind that the vegetation has transferred its activity underground. Things are still very lively with the trees, just not as visible. I agree re dental exams---I'm just glad I have an alternate route to get oxygen. When I was a kid, numbing medicine was not universally used. Later in life I had nitrous oxide. I experienced such profound euphoria from it that I thought I had discovered the secret to living. When it wore off, I had forgotten the secret. So the next time, I ran right to my car and wrote it down before the gas had fully worn off. I wrote "just don't worry". I don't mind the dentist so much, once I trust their skill and judgement. If that means spending my facelift budget on a private dentist, so be it
Chunkahlunkah I am vicariously trying that Texas BBQ right along with you. I can't wait to hear when you try brisket and ribs No pressure, take your time
Amen to planning. I re-learn that lesson every single time I decide to wing it.
I've completed 30 days of headspace--The Basics. It's one thing that makes me enjoy dark mornings.
Sunday
B coffee, 2%; later on breakfast seemed like a good idea. I knew I was good and hungry, vs my usual going by the clock.
B2 poached egg on a bed of baby spinach from the hot bar; small Pippin apple--blast form the past.
B3 faux egg foo yung---eggs, cabbage, mung sprouts, scallions, tiny bit of sesame oil & tamari sauce.
L part of a B-up bar, pear, black coffee
Plan
D stew of ground turkey, black beans, corn, butternut squash, mole, salsa
S sauteed vegs, protein shake
Sundove - I think "just don't worry" is a profound insight! I'll be sure to let you know when I finally get the good bbq.
flower - That's very cool that you got to do clairvoyance training. Was the training effective for giving you control over your abilities? I don't doubt clairvoyance. I've had multiple experiences of it in life.
So, last night I had a hot date , and he generously* treated us to a meal out at a fantastic Italian place. I had a delicious steak for my main. Really outstanding. It more than made up for the mediocre bbq Thurs night. My calories yesterday were ridiculous--estimated at around 2300. So I've accepted that this week was officially a diet-break week. The scale was a negative creep this morning, but I figure that's food weight form last night and some bloat from extra sodium.
*He's in one of my classes, but he works full-time with an engineering degree, so I didn't feel bad letting him pay.
I'm going to aim for 900-1200 calories today to help deflate this food baby.
Chunkahlunkah Nice way to get your protein in! I'm pretty sure you'll quickly drop that food baby--most likely it's Restaurant Sodium Syndrome. Enquiring minds want to know did you guys talk coding?
Sundove - We did a little! That's the class we have together. He's helped me a couple times with the assignments. I informed him last night not to get his hopes up that I'm an airhead bc I'm actually crazy smart. He kindly said he already realized that.
Chunkahlunkah, Between the steak and his reply, I'd say there's real potential there! I love what you said about being an airhead because you're crazy smart. True that!
Morning,
Most of all I love your pbutter experiment! "
Pb in Asian style dishes is so good!
I'd considered not going to class today--was feeling so frustrated with it--and others must've felt similarly bc only 5 out of the 10 of us were there. I'm glad I made myself go. The professor recently asked us for feedback, and today he announced that he'll be making some significant changes that will really help. I'm so happy! 
) 
I didn't care for the precepting dentist who made poor eye contact--forgot to ask if he will always be the precceptor. They did a full set of oral xrays--23 pictures using a frame thing that was uncomfortable. No biggie, but the cumulative effect was a sense of unease. I will go for the 3-4 hr exam in 2 wks. If he proposes a crown replacement or filling, I'll decide then whether to continue.
I really loathe the attitude among many in our culture that respect and kindness are conditional on cash.
