Hi Everyone,
Sorry for the delay; it has been a hectic week. Thank you so much for the warm welcome
LizzyLou - I wanted to say that I really encourage you on your journey! Even tho 100 pounds may seem impossible to you, I know you can do it!!! One thing that really helped me, aside from the regular 5 pound stars and 25 pound increment charms, was after I moved from 250 to 240 lbs, from 240 to 230 lbs etc...I would say to myself "I am no longer in the 250s!!" (240s, 230s, 220s etc.) It was a thrill to know I would never be in that weight range again and it was a huge motivator for me and made the total amount of weight I was looking to lose seem manageable
On a more personal note, ever since I started WW I had absolutely no inclination to cheat or binge eat. So, for the last 11 months. However, I am noticing this past week that the temptation seems to have returned. I know I won't give in - sad to say, but my self-worth is now a little too tied into staying on plan. I know I would feel awful about myself if I ever gave in.
I am not sure what has brought this on. I think in part, it is because I am getting to the end of my weight loss and will be maintaining soon. And I am just going through a lot in my life and I am frustrated that losing weight hasn't solved certain problems (mostly friend and relationship issues). I guess when I was bigger sometimes if people responded negatively to me or rejected me, I sometimes assumed it was because of my weight - and sometimes I was actually correct. But now I am left feeling empty wondering what is wrong with me/feeling like something must be wrong with me if I am so lonely.
So, I just sit here, hungry like I never as before, feeling my sad little thoughts. Don't get me wrong, each day I really do wake up feeling like it is Christmas all over again. I can't believe this is my body and I can't believe some of the new opportunities that have come my way. I love to dress up. I love shopping for clothes now. I love doing my hair and makeup and feeling proud of myself. But yet there is a hollow feeling inside of me throughout the day, as I said - wondering what is wrong with me. Anyway, suffice to say that I think that is what is bringing the obsessive thoughts of food on.
Not to make this thread all about me of course; I really encourage everyone here to keep at it
Weight Watchers is a wonderful program and I am so incredibly grateful for it.