Location: Smack dab in the middle, Newfoundland, Canada
Posts: 668
S/C/G: 203.4/170.4/140.0
Height: 5'0"
WHY is it so difficult to get back on track?!
What the **** is wrong with me? Why am I finding it so difficult to get back on track?! WHY AM I LETTING ALL MY HARD WORK GO DOWN THE DRAIN?! This makes no ****ing sense. I can FEEL the weight coming back and I hate myself for it, and it's like I can't stop eating crap. I've pretty much stopped exercising, and I've got all kinds of ****ing excuses for that too (it's too cold, I'm working forty hours a week and don't have time, it's too expensive, blah blah blah.)
This has to stop. I KNOW it has to stop, because if it doesn't, I'm going to go right back to where I was before....200 pounds and ****ing miserable. And I DON'T want to go back there.
What in the **** is wrong with me?! Why am I doing this to myself?! Someone kick my *** or tell me to get the **** over myself...or something. I need some serious motivation or lectures or something. I just don't know why this is so hard when I've already DONE it once. And I don't even have as far to go this time, so why is it so damn difficult?!
It's just motivation. Maybe you are feeling overwhelmed with a lot of things you mentioned in your post. Heck, I would be if I were in your situation!!
Take a breath and start with one thing for now like stop eating crap. Once you've got that handled, ease into working out, just commit 30 mins, or even 15 minutes 1 to 2 times a week then work your way up to it? Just some examples of what you can do, just remember baby steps.
You did it before losing 65 pounds and you can do it again. You obviously still care since you are on here asking for help so that is an awesome first step you've taken right there already. You just have to bite the bullet of getting back into it again.
I don't have any really wise words.... no food tips b/c you have that....
But, imagine how you would feel after losing this much weight and you woke up tomorrow..... and NOTHING fit.... so you had to go to the mall (b/c its more dramatic) and you had to rebuy all the clothes you have given away AGAIN..... Imagine that dressing room went to sleep (again, just for dramatics) size 8 and now you were "back" to a 16/18.... and they were tight. How would you feel. Then you left the mall determined to get the weight off.... you go for a run.... and you have A LOT more trouble breathing and things jiggling that were not jiggling yesterday..... how woud you feel? Or... for my last example-- you have a major event/holiday after your run.... and you have to explain that you gained your weight back, but after the holiday you would get back on board.
I know most of my examples about how you would look.... but more importantly how would you feel? Well, I can tell you as someone who allowed herself to gain 1/2 her weight back... it SUCKS..... but you know what.... I have decided that beating myself up is failing b/c I am gaining more weight.... so I walked my rear in WW, signed up.... and decided I am going to keep going-- even when I lose that "warm fuzzy feeling"....
Just don't allow yourself to gain all the weight you lost.... dig your heels in and get the rest of your journey done while you are just losing motivation.... instead of losing grip and having to redo EVERYTHING.
Maybe instead of jumping back in losing, try maintaining for a bit. It's less pressure, but you won't be undoing all of your hard work. Allow yourself to take a break from losing, but don't go overboard.
I think the biggest piece of advice is to continue to track everything. No matter what. Still having an eff it attitude? Fine, eat that crap that made you 200lbs+, but write it down.
I could have written your post. It's time to stop burying your head in the sand. Like someone above said, I gained 1/2 my weight back and it's taken me 1 solid year to recommit (i's "commitment" that keeps you going, NOT motivation).
Of the 40 I regained, I'm down 10. I hate that I have to fight this battle again, but giving up is not an option for me. It's not for you, either. Throw away the crap food and get your butt in gear! It's time. Do not wait another day because, you know, summer will be here before you know it.
WHY is it so difficult to get back on track?!
