Frustrated, too.
 

I am sooooo not happy with myself. I'm starting week 5 of WW tomorrow & the only week I've had success at losing was week 3 (when I had that big restaurant bravo I mentioned previously). I. Can. Not. Stop. Eating. I haven't even tracked in over a week & I normally track religiously, even when I over-eat.

I can honestly say the over-eating is not cycle-related, anymore. I'm to the point where I feel like counting is soooo hard, even tho I realistically know it's not. Every couple of months (noticeably more in Fall/Winter), I fall off the track for a few weeks/months, gain a lot of my progress back, get frustrated and eventually start over. Or, I lose a couple of pounds, think, "it won't hurt to reward myself with something yummy", but then get defeatist guilt that I "already screwed up, what's one more day??", then rinse & repeat. I don't *get* this behavior. :(

I also haven't truly exercised in over a month, either (& am definitely not drinking any water).. I hate feeling like this!

So, here we are.. as of 2 days ago, I was up 7 lbs (in a few weeks time).. tomorrow is meeting day, and I'm set to "start over". Again. Have a workout plan written down, too.

I hope this time sticks. *sigh*

Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself. I pretty much hit a wall last night too. I just did. Not. Want. To track what I was eating! It was my way of rebelling. I ate chicken wings, French bread and finished it with a cupcake. It felt disgusting eating all of that grease. :( I woke up this morning and tracked every last bite and I'm ready to get back on the horse today. It looks like you've done a phenomenal job at losing so far. Keep up the great work! We all fall off sometimes but you've got a great plan in motion to get back to it.

I am sorry you are having a hard time. I am a binge eater myself so if I am not careful I go overboard.

Start over again, there is nothing that says you can't. :)

I know that feeling. Sometimes I just get tired of tracking. My little tracking note book has all of these random gaps, sometimes of weeks.

For me, I just sometimes have to remind myself that time is going to pass whether I track or not, and whether I'm losing or not. Do I want to be saying 6 months from now "I'm still the same (or higher) weight because I didn't want to track?"

Today after about 8 months of following meal plan, I decided to have Indian food to my heart contents. I had a lot. But, I have to face my trainer on Tuesday. I do not know what I am going to say. I will probably say same thing that I deserve a break after 8 months or so.
But, from tomorrow, why tomorrow from this evening my routine starts.
Do not be hard on yourself, what is done is done what cannot be cured has to be endured, Past is not inyour hands but, future you can change.
So change your future, imagine you are in size 8 dress in another 4months or something and starts running after it as if **** is going to fall on you..if you do not achieve it. How does that sound...my boss used to tell me that..
Pl do not get angry with me for saying all these things to you. I guess I am talking to myself also.

Originally Posted by KDeian:
Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself. I pretty much hit a wall last night too. I just did. Not. Want. To track what I was eating! It was my way of rebelling. I ate chicken wings, French bread and finished it with a cupcake. It felt disgusting eating all of that grease. :( I woke up this morning and tracked every last bite and I'm ready to get back on the horse today. It looks like you've done a phenomenal job at losing so far. Keep up the great work! We all fall off sometimes but you've got a great plan in motion to get back to it.

Thank you so much. I'm trying to look at the overall picture- no, I'm not happy I've gained 10 lbs (got weighed in this morning) over the last month.. but I'm not nearly close to my starting weight, so not all is lost. Good for you for going back and tracking your splurges! I think it's equally important to recognize the bad days.. but I know, it's easier said than done. So far, today's been good to me! *cross fingers*

Be nice to yourself. That is the best advice. If someone else had written your post having had the same experience, what would you offer them? Support. Be nice to yourself; feeling like you should be punished makes it worse. We're human; we err. Tight hugs.

Originally Posted by Tonyia:
I am sorry you are having a hard time. I am a binge eater myself so if I am not careful I go overboard.

Start over again, there is nothing that says you can't. :)

Thank you for responding. Normally I have better willpower. :\

Originally Posted by chubbybunny29:
For me, I just sometimes have to remind myself that time is going to pass whether I track or not, and whether I'm losing or not. Do I want to be saying 6 months from now "I'm still the same (or higher) weight because I didn't want to track?"

This has been in the back of my mind since last May, and it's what really got me going. I don't know what it is about this time of year... maybe it's the winter blues still getting to me.. and/or the reduced availability of the fresh fruits/veggies I depend on during the spring/summer. I just need to get out of this funk. :\

Originally Posted by puneri:
Today after about 8 months of following meal plan, I decided to have Indian food to my heart contents. I had a lot. But, I have to face my trainer on Tuesday. I do not know what I am going to say. I will probably say same thing that I deserve a break after 8 months or so.
But, from tomorrow, why tomorrow from this evening my routine starts.
Do not be hard on yourself, what is done is done what cannot be cured has to be endured, Past is not inyour hands but, future you can change.
So change your future, imagine you are in size 8 dress in another 4months or something and starts running after it as if **** is going to fall on you..if you do not achieve it. How does that sound...my boss used to tell me that..
Pl do not get angry with me for saying all these things to you. I guess I am talking to myself also.

No worries, I'm not angry. I need to interact with you guys like this, it helps. Good on you for following a meal plan for 8 months! I feel like sometimes you gotta treat yourself to the good stuff, too, though, otherwise it's just another deprivation diet.. and those just do not work. I mean obviously ya gotta practice moderation, but one day of bad eating isn't going to screw up all your hard work. And... I LOVE Indian food! I just had it for the first time, a few months ago. :)

Originally Posted by 124chicksinger:
Be nice to yourself. That is the best advice. If someone else had written your post having had the same experience, what would you offer them? Support. Be nice to yourself; feeling like you should be punished makes it worse. We're human; we err. Tight hugs.

I know... that's what makes it worse, is I KNOW all the right answers.. it's like there's a mental block that's just saying it's too hard right now. I know it's all in my head... and then I know I'm being ridiculous. Goodness.

Thank you for the hug.. needed that. :)

I know what you mean, sometimes you need to be able to come here and vent and other times you just need to come here and see that everyone has bumps in the road and that its okay. :)

I'm reading this thread again, because I NEED IT. I just got back from dinner. I thought I did okay but apparently not. I am over for the day and used up all my weeklies and more. Ug. I'm so mad at myself.

Oh well, tomorrow's another day and I'm not going to never reach my goal because of one meal.

All these posts mirror what i feel every now and then as well.

I've found that i can factor in some 'yummy' foods into my daily totals and still not go over. For instance today i had a piece of b'day cake...gosh was it good. For afternoon snack i will only have a piece of fruit and then dinner will be a salad...very little calories in salad and veggies and you can have heaps as well ! :)
Its ok to have an occasional sweet thing...as long as i don't go overboard for the whole day..i know i'm still on track.

Originally Posted by girlsenberry:
I know... that's what makes it worse, is I KNOW all the right answers.. it's like there's a mental block that's just saying it's too hard right now. I know it's all in my head... and then I know I'm being ridiculous. Goodness.

Thank you for the hug.. needed that. :)

Mental block is exactly how I've been describing what I've gone through the past 2 weeks. I've still been tracking and staying within my dailies (no weeklies) and earning AP. But it's been such a struggle. It's like I'm having this fight inside myself. I don't want to measure my food. I want to go to a restaurant and order whatever I want and not worry about if it's fried or cooked with a pound of butter. I don't want to go to the gym.

It's like there's a part of me that's kicking and screaming and putting up a huge fight against this attempt at a lifestyle change.

but I guess, at least for now, There's another part of me fighting back - and winning. Small victories but victories nonetheless.

And while I wish none of us had to deal with those mental road blocks, I'm glad to see I'm not the only one struggling with them.

and I'm hopeful that we're all going to get through them - together! :-)

So sorry to hear you are struggling. :( :hug:

If it just feels too overwhelming to put everything back in the wagon at once, so to speak, just set a mini goal that you are 100% committed to this week. Like just focus on the workout plan, and maybe keep it on the moderate side since so many of us have a tendency to go gung-ho then burn out. Then next week, tracking no matter what you are eating. Or worry about just getting the GHG's in if you aren't, etc. Whatever you think would help you the most and feels like something you can accomplish if you focus on that and just let the other stuff be noise for now. Sometimes we try too hard to pick up where we feel we left off and then just discourage ourselves if it doesn't instantly click together again.

Personally keeping the activity on track seems to impact so many things - I feel more energetic, I sleep better, I am usually a little more mindful of my choices, etc.

My first leader liked to say 'Track on the days you want to lose' - I've thought about writing down that phrase, maybe on a cutesy-decorated post-it or card or something and put it near my computer monitor - where I usually do my tracking, so on the days I'm feeling tracking-challenged it'll be right in my face.

I know how you feel as I've written your post SEVERAL times :( I too did well previously then had surgery and things seemed to go downhill after that. And like you, you feel like if you have a meal or a day slip up that forget it, i mise well eat what I want because of an off plan meal! I wish i had the answers. The great thing is your back and know what you need to do. I've only lost 5 lbs in a month :( which is very frustrating but have to realize what the alternative would be, not good lol!! Hugs, we can do this!!

Hope you are doing better today *hugs*

when I fall off the wagon, I don't persecute myself. I just tell myself to keep going and get back on the next day, I weigh every morning but I only record every Friday. It helps to keep me on track, when I see the scale going too high I say YIKES! and then it's time to get back to business. Sometimes I backslide but it's all a part of the game and most importantly I tell myself. I didn't gain this weight overnight, so I'm not going to lose it overnight.