I was (am?) skeptical about the program. There is a LOT of negative stuff online about WWPP, even over at WW's own website. Matter of fact, my own leader said "I GAINED the first 2 weeks on PP, but I stuck with it and I lost 37 pounds and reached goal." So, that was bad, then, good to hear. I'm doing the at work program and as I posted elsewhere, the majority of members reached goal on a prior program and aren't exactly embracing PP. Newer members (like me) are stuck with PP. I've done WW before; last time about 9? years ago. I recall requirements for 2 milks, 3 breads, 2 proteins, 2 fats, 2 fruits and free veggies for my female frame, minimum. The fact that proteins and GRAINS (not bread/starch) aren't ticked off on a box anymore stumps and confuses me, but I'm going with the flow now that I'm trying to wrap my mind around this PP program.
Anyhow, I am hypothyroid/diabeticII/fatty livered and menopausal. It isn't an excuse, my metabolism isn't great. I lose slowly, stall, get discouraged, quit. Why did I "come back?" I see people at work losing and [most of them] keeping it off. Two seriously put it back on, plus some, but....I was getting hopeful, again, that maybe this new program could work some magic for me. I was inspired!
During the first week, I anticipated losing nothing, with the program learning curve. I didn't believe when the leader said I lost 1.6. We don't see the scale, so .... she could have told a little lie to encourage me, right? That is how sick and twisted my mind is. Week 2, last week, Wednesday, after 10 weeks without, T.O.M as you write on the forum, and I was beside myself after weighing in and not dropping an ounce. Of course, there was part of the reason in big red letters.
That night, I had a fight with my husband about dinner. I've not been myself since starting WWPP. On one hand, I'm trying to be all "cheerleader" about it and on the other I have my doubts, question if I'm really following it properly, adding that "no loss" weigh ins so early seals the deal that it isn't working, is a waste of time, I'm doing it wrong, I'm a horrible evil person destined to be locked in my own body. I know...dramatic, that. I can write that now and see how ridiculous it is, but still. That scale reinforces such negativity when it doesn't go the way you envision it. Conversely? Well, see conversely below.
Thursday I overate. I chalked it up to Weeklies and didn't beat myself up. I went to bed early because I was intolerable to my family and to myself. Friday was a little better, looking forward to a week off work, and being able to de-stress that area of life. Saturday, I apologized to my husband, pleaded for his help to get me through this miserable phase and not resist my efforts for myself to get healthier and thinner. We actually had a lovely day after that conversation, and after dinner, I had leftover points that I absolutely could not consume. I was stuffed. I figured...so what. One night I overate and now I underate....maybe in a week's time it would all work out and I'd see a difference at the scale.
Last night I didn't sleep well and was up very early. To not wake the entire house, I cleaned out a closet. Quietly. At 9 a.m. I went downstairs and decided perhaps I should go to a meeting TODAY, the start of WW's week, rather than wait until Wednesday, since I won't be a work, I'd have to find another meeting anyhow. Quite the concept, going today, before breakfast. Of course, this meant a trip to MY scale, just to test the water. Naked, I weighed 185. Fully dressed, with shoes, I weighed 187.5. 187.5 is less than 188.6 on Wednesday at work. It never dawned on me that the scales could differ by more than a few ounces. I decided going today would be a win-win. Certainly, I could not weigh more there than I did in my own bathroom fully dressed, with shoes.
The weigh in lady says...you had a great week. I replied HUH? She says 2.8 lost...you're 185.6. Seriously? I said please weigh me again. She asks...do you keep your shoes on at your usual meeting? Well, yes I do and there's a running joke about that...the next to last meeting of the 16 week tour, I'm taking one off...and the last meeting both...so this way I go out with a loss even if I didn't lose. (Of course, I'll be leaving my shoes on.)
We discussed my last weigh in being only just Wednesday. How could this HUGE loss be possible? Is it a difference in the scales, and not real? She said a person should always rely on the scale where they usually weigh in. So, I won't know for a full week and a half if their scale is right/wrong/fair, or if the work scale is right/wrong/fair. I do know that the scale in town weighed me near 2 full pounds less than my bathroom scale and my weigh ins at work took place at noon, after breakfast and 3 cups of water...but we'll see in a week and a half.
I'm sorry for the length of this post. So much to get off my chest.
Those losing on WWPP and posting your successes means a great deal to me and goes a long way in my "giving in" to the program and believing it can work. I hope I can get past all my own crazy.


