Feel like a fraud
 

So I became lifetime a few months ago, and at some point in the past few weeks I decided I was better than WW and cheated in my tracking, ate junk, binged, didnt' exercise as much.. and I gained about 7 pounds. I'm so disspointed right now in myself that I am totally giving up. I am embarrassed, ashamed, frustrated that weeks and weeks of hard work seems to be lost. Today was my first day back OP and what do I do, binge tonight. I have finished the peanut butter which I somehow convinced myself that I might be able to have in the house even though I never have been able to. I have to remember this next time I go by it at the grocery store. It is definitely a red light food for me. I'm just sabotaging myself and beyond frustrated.

Sigh:(

Hey, the peanut butter wasn't all you did today. You also ate well the rest of the day! That counts too. Plan for tomorrow, and keep going. :carrot:

thanks Julie.

I know you are right. Being my old weight will never be a goal so I guess I have to assume that and keep going. Being upset does nothing. I know this. I just feel like my cravings have taken over. I forget how I got to goal. Maybe I was just lucky enough to not have too much stress and right now my stress levels are through the roof. But there will always be stress. I need to have a better way than eating to deal with things I dont want to.

:hug: You know what, we all have those "binge" days. We're only human. Just brush yourself off and start fresh. Tomorrow's a new day.

Are you going to your meetings?
I am at (really below) goal and I go to my meetings almost every week. They help to keep me focused and motivated.
You just need to brush yourself off and jump back in. All is not lost. Do not give up. You can do it!

This may not help, but have you heard of PB2? It is way lower in calories, but it is powdered. It might be something that can help you have your daily pb fix.

I LOVE me some pb2! My grocery store (luckily) carries it. Otherwise I think you can only get it online---where it's a little pricey :-S

Thanks ladies

I have not heard of PB2 but I'm in Canada so maybe that's why. I think I'll just not buy peanut butter for ..ever. Ugh!

I do go to meeting every week. I just don't WI every week. I decided this morning that I will have to WI every week until I get back to goal. As embarassing as it is. It's a small price to pay for getting back on track.

Just wanted to say last week at my meeting I committed to my leader that I would WI next week and I've been OP all week! I think it was a combination of that and getting a handle on the thigns I was stressed about but wasn't acknowledging. I am focusing on stress management and it seems that WW falls into place for me once that aspect of life is not so daunting.

Thank you for your support too!

Well that is just awesoeme, BD! You will be back where you were in no time! Look how far you've come already, that is wonderful.