paranoid..
 

So
I struggle with restricting my points, I eat specifically my 20 a day and avoid eating my 35(I just feel weighed down doing it). Now that I want to maintain in the next few weeks when I reach my goal, will it be harder for me to maintain since I haven't used my extra 35 in the past 4 months? I know using them is key so you can have more points through the day, but I don't know if my body can adjust to eating that much more then INCLUDE the extra to maintain..

any suggestions?

When you go to maintenance, your target will be higher than it is right now. I would suggest slowly adding in some flex points on top of that. Try to get in 4 a week the first week. Then 6 the next. You can keep going until you get to a point where maybe you have a little of a gain that week. Then back off to the number you were using the previous week and try to stick with that. Those flex points are there for a reason :) You don't HAVE to eat them, but you are probably being really restrictive if you aren't eating any of them at all!