Hi Gracie and Jan -
Challengettes, forgive this repeat but I don't have time right now to write something new...
My last straw was 5 years ago. I was dating a guy in Oct '97 who invited me to a Halloween Party. Since I had halfheartedly joined this Marathon training group two months prior I "thought" I was getting toned and losing weight and felt healthier. We went to the party and he took photos of me and us - I thought I looked 'hot' in this harem outfit… until he mailed the me the photos. When I saw what I really looked like, I was mortified. I looked fat, pasty, and 10 years older than I was.
It was about this time I stopped hearing from him. I'm a "closure" kind of gal so I called him and ended up hearing how he decided he wasn't attracted to me. I was devastated, crushed, and then I got angry. It was in its own way the best thing that could have happened. That following Monday, I joined Weight Watchers, and started the process of losing 30 lbs.
If not for this incident, and the amazing Weight Watcher group support, I probably would have quit the Marathon training. Instead, it strengthened my resolve to really prove I could do 26.2 miles (walking). Between the training and our WW leader's incredible WW motivation and support, I lost the first 20 lbs and became fit. One month after I finished my first Marathon in April '98, I met my husband-to-be, fell in love, reached goal that July, and got married in Nov '98.
It's been almost 3 ½ years since reaching goal (and 5 marathons)... after the last one I decided my body needed a more modified regimen, so I’ve “cut back” to an occasional Half Marathon, and some 10Ks, and 5Ks.
Now, I know we don’t talk too much about “lapses”, but I had one in Nov. 2000 lasting on and off until May ’01. I started missing meetings, not journaling, and definitely not tracking. I put on weight and gained 10 pounds over official goal. I finally woke up realizing I missed the “new” and real me, and went back to my home meeting. Our WW leader was just starting a Weight Watcher 12 Week Challenge, and this motivated me to get back with the program and lose the weight.
The key however was posting on this very thread and us starting the first 12 Week Online Challenge. It changed my focus... Iwasn't alone in this. I realize now, how important the group support is. Within 3 months I re-lost the weight.
I am currently at 127, having lost a few more pounds due to focused eating and exercise and am now in the best shape I have been in since my early twenties. Truly I have WW and all you Lifers out there to thank for that.
Yes, I threw out those pictures long ago, but I will never forget how I felt when I saw myself as others saw me. And while I’ve learned to no longer compare my insides to others outsides, I know I will never go back to that old, whimpy, former me. I won’t allow it. Thanks guys.