When he came into the office, of course, the first question was: so, what are we doing today? I told him I only wanted to talk.... the questioning look in his eye came first, then he shut the door. When I started to say that I wanted to talk about my weight, he instantly picked up on how I was feeling - knew I was depressed (gee, d'ya think maybe the tears beginning to fill my eyes were a dead giveaway?
) Anyhow, I told him that nothing has been working, and went thru the list of all I've done over the years, from OA to WW to Atkins, also including the dreaded Xenical, hypnosis etc etc etc..... and that I was seriously considering banding. When he said he thought I might be "too light"... I gave him my bmi and co-morbids......... told him that Oxford Freedom Plan has covered this for others, and let him know how much I've researched - he said that at this point, I know more about it than he does!! He has 6 pts who have had wls: 3 bands and 3 bypasses; in his experience, the 3 w/bypass are doing "better" than the ones w/bands - altho he does admit that his personal experience is very limited. He wants me to try something before starting the process of getting to wls: many of his patients taking topamax (an anti-seizure med) are losing weight. The drug has some severe side effects (some of them sound kind of like my life right now!!) but, as he said, if I am serious enough to consider surgery, I should try this first. If any of the side effects show up, I can stop the drug and continue on the road. He will see me again in 1 month to do blood work and see how it's going....... I just filled the script and will begin taking it tonight. For the first time in quite a while, I feel some hope.......
I must admit, I was so afraid that he would "pooh pooh" my feelings... I am so thrilled that he didn't- I just KNEW there was a reason I love him!!


