Morning ladies!

Been thinking about this subject off and on all weekend...

Deb -- Wow. Your post has made me realize that in my whole life -- not even 25 years ago when I weighed 135 pounds -- has it ever occurred to me that I might be at my goal weight. (Of course, that's at least partly because at that time I was still counting every frigging calorie during the day and dreaming about banquets every night -- waking up in a cold sweat, thinking I had "blown" my diet.)

Your comments speak to something so much deeper within me than all the dieting/weight loss rhetoric -- something that I've been trying to get at but couldn't even verbalize to myself -- the fact that never in my life can I remember thinking of myself as being all right...really, really all right...just exactly as I am...today. I think I've always withheld that approval for some future date, never granted until I accomplish some something that I have yet to do.

It just hit me when you wrote that you were satisfied...that just maybe that kind of peace really is available and -- if so -- I want it too.

Too bad it's not for sale on ebay. I'd have me some by the end of the week!

Thanks everyone for your comments. I love this board.

Sooner

Wonderful post, Sooner, and something that most all women grapple with on a daily basis I bet. You got me thinking back to many points in my life and you are right, I have NEVER thought I was 'ok'. There was always something about myself that I just couldn't accept. My goal this year is to REALLY work on accepting myself and liking myself just as I am. And working on changing those things that I don't feel good about - and most of those are things on the inside.

Thank you for making me do some good thinking this morning.

Kel

Dear All, After reading and re reading all of the post on this thread it has put new meaning to all that we have been through. Whether we are 700 pound or 150 pound we have the same mental stigmas. And yes this is a mental game till we die. We have been give the tool to stop our eating but no one can give us the mental attutide but us. That we have to work on each and every day. Keep up the good work both ways. Grammy