So today was my birthday and I was prepared for the cake. By prepared I mean, I was going to eat it and oh not beat myself up
so my sweet fiancé who doesn't bake make buys me a Hersey Dark chocolate pie. Really appreciated it since for everyone in this house special day I make them a cake. So anyways, let me tell you, stay away from this horrible but so good pie. I ate a BIG piece then finished off my nephews pie when he said he had enough. I was over my limit. Sugar rush, crash, feeling like crap, feeling like a pig etc. This is after a mini break down this morning that my pants gave me the mega muffin top from Hades. I'm seriously just not getting it anymore. I'm feeling like crap. It seems everywhere I turn, I'm forced to see healthy size women. This cycle never seems to stop. I been reading and feeling like this is it! I will be healthy today, tomorrow, everyday but somehow end up at this low point.
Yep there is my rant. I know were suppose to have a positive outlook but serious I just wanna tell my self to stop being a face stuffing pig!
I wanna just be healthy and get to a point where looking at mood doesn't turn me into a manic who JUST has to have it even when stuffed...
ugh