Experiment with the NO NO NEVERS!
 

I have not been eating bread, potatoes, rice, white flour etc. So this weekend I decided that I was going to try bread, potatoes, rice and white flour. Had ham hocks and greens over four fifty-cent sized fried potatoes, 1/2 piece of french toast make out of white ricotta bread, three sushi rolls with white rice. The verdict: potatoes didn't taste right, french toast was too sweet, sushi rolls clogged me up. So much for that experiment!! Funny, but I really don't and won't miss any of that stuff.

OT: I've never been a vain person, but I think that I'm getting that way!! Sunday, I tried on four outfits before church and was grumbling because they hung like sacks. I have no bosom, hips or fanny, and thin hair but have a big fat hernia and belly and my legs look like they have been run over by a truck! I was complaining to my DH and he finally said, "What do you really want!" I thought about it and realized that I didn't want to look FAT!! I was really shocked, because my looks have never been a big priority with me.. "I'm so vain, I bet you think this song is about me...I'm so vain...Now don't you, don't you, don't you..." I guess that is my new mantra. Last Sunday, I even made my DH pull back up the driveway because I forgot to put on lipstick. This is pathetic and completely funny for a 56 y/o woman. You can't make a silk purse out of a sow's ear!!! LOL!!! Just one more little quirks to add to my list. I seriously forget sometimes that I'm healthier than I've been for the last 20 years and worry about stupid mundane things. Three times last week, I have had to let people I've known for years that it was me. It secretly thrilled me, but was embarrassed by the attention. Now if that isn't neurotic!!!! Here is another kicker, my kids and grands were looking at my old high school picture and laughing at my "cat" glasses and I realized that I'm wearing my hair the same way I did when I was 17!!

LOL I hear ya! I had Chinese food for the first time since surgery just because I wanted to see if I would dump or spontaneously combust or turn into a pumpkin or something :D and I just ate a bit and it wasn't EVEN as good as it before...my taste buds have most definitely changed as I was told I would! Now I don't even want it.

As for the OT...Me too!!!! The vanity, the neuroses, the not wanting to go without lipstick! "Can't take off the hat, I have hat hair!" I think it's a good, healthy sense of self worth creeping up on us, my friend! Maybe a bit more then I should at this point but hey, I have years of not liking myself to catch up on!


Angela :hug: