If you learn the secret to 100% loving the way you look please let me know. I totally understand though what your saying. I never looked at myself when I was heavy like I do now. I don't know if it is you see how much your body has changed and you just want perfection or what. I do know that it is like a hamster in a wheel though worrying about it though. Our bodies are what they are and all of us are shaped different. I have learned to focus on the good parts of my body and be happy with those and just try and tone the parts that are a little less fortunate. I don't know why there can't be some magic mirror though. There would be a lot of happy women out there and the husbands of the world would rejoice. Take it easy!