I'm really feeling blue right now and I just can't seem to pull myself out of it. The past year has been pretty traumatic. First my Grandma died. She was my confidante and friend, and the one person I could always count on to be there for me. Then my mother was diagnosed with cancer. Thankfully, she is currently in remission. Then my favorite cat died a horrible, painful death. To top it off, my boyfriend of five years left me about a month ago.
The one friend that I have in this area is going to be moving away next month.
I just feel so alone and overwhelmed. I'm seeing a counselor and she says I am doing all the right things, like going to the gym and finding other ways to meet people, but I feel like none of it is working. I work in a job where I don't meet the public, so I don't meet people at work. And to a lot of people, if you're fat, you might as well be invisible.
I'm mostly OK during the week when I'm at work around people and then can go to the gym afterwards and work out until I'm exhausted, but weekends are really hard because I'm by myself and the gym is closed on Sunday. I know it will get better with time, but how do you cope until it gets better?
I'm trying to turn it into something positive by focusing on losing weight, but I think it will take me a least a year to get to my goal, and right now it just seems like a long, lonely road stretching out in front of me...
I guess I should just be happy that I'm one of those people who loses their appetite when they get depressed