My "new way of eating for life" is to cut portion sizes. I know I eat way too much food (I feel happiest with a stuffed belly. Pushes down the stress and anxiety) and tired of eating like a fat person. Right now, I'm having a hard time stopping myself from eating more than I need. I feel very little self control, but not because I'm hungry. Once I start eating, I pretty much go into a binge. Eating makes me feel good. Staying away from food is the only way for me to control how much I put in my mouth. I wish I didn't have to eat. But even though I have had some binges this last week, I have kept my daily calorie range under 1500. It's been very hard.
I walk 5-7 times a week, an hour each time. This isn't helping me lose weight, but I love to walk, so I'm sticking with it. I'm thinking of adding weights into my back pack purse to get my heart rate up. Walking is easy for me. I've been walking with my mom for years.
I need some encouragement to keep on trying. Right now, eating right and exercising is not making the scale move at all. They say you lose the most the first week. Well, I lost nothing. This does NOT encourage me to keep going! If that's the most, what do I have to look forward to? Just being miserable and fat, that's all.
Thanks for listening.
Heidi
180/180 (still)/135


