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Here is a new budget: Rent - $500 Groceries - $400 TV, Net, Cell - $140 Cigs/Gas - $160-$220 Insurance - Around $200 Saving - $200 Total - $1600-$1660 BF Income - $1600-$1700/mth maybe more with any Overtime Me - $300 - $500/mth (Part Time) Total - $1900 - $2200 |
Trixie14 - please don't take this the wrong way. I get the feeling we are upsetting you and making you feel worse.
None of us are meaning to do that, we are simply trying to help you by teaching us where we went wrong. I want to tell you something that I left about before because it is very personal for me. Like I mentioned I spent the last 10 or so years with my with step dad and a lot of that time was not so happy and I always felt like you, I always worried about stuff that really wasn't important. Last May/June my mom went thru rehab when she got out in June I went to the same center and took a one week course. Where I sat for 6 days, 10 hours a day, and delted with my hate for this man. When I left 6 days later I realized how much time I had spent worrying about such petty thing things. How I missed SOOO MUCH because I was always so concerned that I was being treated unfairly. I never felt better in my life, it really was a breath of fresh air. I always thought that none of this stuff really bothered me, but it did and it really does MESS YOU UP! You need to take everything as a gain of sand, in one ear and out the other. Worry about NO ONE, NO ONE AT ALL, but you, because in the end you are the only person that is important to you. Who cares if she gets free rent and you boyfriend doesn't, who cares if her mom has no backbone, who cares, who cares, who cares. This doesn't have to effect you, but you are letting it. You are on control of you, you CAN NOT control anyone else so don't even try. Now please don't rip my head off, I meant all that in the best way possible. |
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it feels really good to let go, doesn't it? Good for you for figuring this out so early. It took me a LOT longer! :) |
idest - letting go really is one of the best feelings in the world. It is nice to know that you are in control of feelings. (for the most part, haha)
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You have it right, the only person who can understand how it is for you is you. Even though you boyfriend lives in the same place even he can't understand. My best suggestion is for you to find a new place to live and just say, okay were leaving now. Take control, tell you boyfriend he can come if he wants. My boyfriend and I moved into his aunt's basment suite about 6 months, I wont get into any details but I HATE IT, sometimes I think I will kill them if I dont get out of them, so I told him, "I am moving, you can come if you want." I found a new place to live and that was that. We move in two weeks.
Only you know what is best for you. This is his family, it is much easier for him to deal with them and he will never understand how you feel because he sees things different. Just get out and don't look back. Start fresh! |
There are two books called Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie (I think?) They are a daily reading book, you read a small passage everyday. That is what we read while in this program, it was GREAT!
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I understand what you are saying.
But here is the reality: Life is not fair. The only one who can change your situation is you. You are on the right road to doing so, by making a budget and getting a job. I think you are showing a lot of maturity for a girl your age. Just remember though, Trixie--when it comes to posting on a forum like this, be careful asking for advice--you just might get more than you bargained for. Don't ask me how I know..... |
I actually found this! Looks like they post the passage everyday, maybe from different books tho:
http://www.hazelden.org/servlet/haze...&page_id=25020 |
I think we actually watched some SUPER SUPER old movie that she made, and I was like OMG that's MY LIFE!!! HOW DID SHE KNOW? haha it was awesome
I just saw on that site, they actually have the passages from all differen't daily books. I was just thinking about buying the book, see if I can't find it off ebay but maybe I don't even need to buy it! |
I was just wondering why you are only interested in working part time - are you still in school or something?
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My only comment is, move out, you won't regret it. Times will be tough sometimes. Do not fret & sweat over the budget..if you HAVE to make it you will. Sometimes you will have to eat Hamburger Helper, without the "hamburger", but you will make it.
It's been 30 years ago, but I was thrown out of the house because I was dating a "hippie". We had to set up household without even a friggin' FORK. I did it, and I lived to talk about it, and you can do it, too. |
All I can say is that, if you truly want to move out, you'll do whatever it takes to make it happen - regardless of what it means giving up or doing without. I think, though, you need to ask yourself - are you REALLY willing to do WHATEVER it takes to make it happen?
I read many of your blog entries - really, honestly, and without trying to be harsh, it doesn't come across that way. You mentioned a babysitting job that you were ultimately glad not to get as it would have meant getting up at 5AM every day - but then another entry outlined your plans for the day, and it was waking up at 10AM, taking an hour for yourself to "wake up", and then doing some exercise, showering, bit of schoolwork, TV, etc. You have to ask yourself what's more important - getting up at the crack of dawn and collecting a paycheck so you can move out, or having the luxury of time to do what you want all day? Nothing in life comes easy....this is coming from one who knows. For the most part, people who have, have because they work very hard for it. I got into my first apartment by saving literally EVERY penny I had - it meant that I didn't get to "treat" myself with books or CD's or other luxuries....even just every once in a while. Every penny mattered, and moving out mattered to me - I made the decision about what was most important. Your budget seems reasonable - although I would caution that if getting an accurate car insurance quote is the make or break issue, you're likely going to find it very difficult to make ends meet as there will ALWAYS be an unexpected expense that comes up. If you can only just get by with every last penny accounted for, it will be tough going - it's not pretty to hear, but it's the truth. It won't be impossible - again, it's all about what you're willing to sacrifice to gain an apartment of your own. Could you not get a paper route or something to make a little extra cash while you look for a full-time job? You mentioned a larger town close by, but that it would cost more in gas to get there - well, if you can get a full-time job there that you can't where you are now, the extra gas will be more than worth it. I do think that trying to do this when you're only able to contribute a couple hundred dollars a month, is less than ideal. |
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