First off let me say, I love my bf and I know he loves me very much. We have a good relationship, we have our ups and downs just like everyone else, but there is just something that bothers me and i just really want to get over it.
I have really big insecurity issues. I think my bf contributed a bit to making me be this way. When we go out, he is always checking out other girls. I wouldn't mind so much but the boy stares!! He says he doesn't do it on purpose, he just has a staring problem and that his mom is the exact same way. I've told him that that it does hurt my feelings and it makes me feel like s*** when he does it right in front of me. I'm not saying I'm innocent because I have checked out guys but at least I have the decency not to do it in front of his face!! When he does it, it makes me feel like I don't look good enough to hold his attention. And I feel so bad that it has gotten to the point that I sometimes dread going out with him, especially to clubs (i.e. skanky girls in tiny outfits!!).
I do admit that I have gotten better and I don't let it bother me so much. But what I'm scared of is that after I lose all this weight and am truly comfortable with myself, am I going to care that my bf looks at other girls? I really hope I don't because to me, it's such a petty thing to get upset about. I know it hurts so much right now because I'm overweight and not happy with the way I look. I know his problem won't go away, but will my insecurities go away after I reach my goal??
Has anyone else felt this way before?? If yes, how did you deal with it??