I've been slacking since before the holidays, and not doing what I need to do to lose the weight I want to lose. I made it down to 199 a couple of weeks ago, and now it's starting to creep back up (204 this morning). I'm annoyed and angry that I haven't been making this a priority. I want to lose the weight, but I just get lazy and stressed and start eating in ways I know won't help, and not doing what I need to do to lose it.
So I'm re-committing. Unfortunately, I decided to recommit AFTER breakfast, but oh well. My goals are to stay between 1200 and 1700 cal per day (hopefully averaging around 1500 daily for the week) and get at least some exercise in, even if it's just walking a mile or two a day. The exercise is a little bit of a challenge because I'm working full time and starting a part-time job (so my weeks are going to look like 70-75 hour work weeks for a while, until I get moved and my car paid down), but I'm going to count walking to work and home as exercise (about 3 miles a day).
I re-started a fitday account. If it goes in my mouth, I'm logging it. I'm going to drink my water and cut out the diet soda completely -- I had gotten down to 1 can every couple of days, and now I'm back up to drinking 3-4 cans a day within a month or so time. And honestly, the more I drink of it, the more my other habits seems to fly out the window. I know for sure that I'm not drinking the water I need to when I'm drinking diet soda.
I can do this. I know I can. I'm just angry with myself that I haven't been -- three months down the drain for no good reason. Well, it's time to get it together again, and start taking care of myself. No one else can do it for me.