Hey Funniegrrl, and Igottabme. Boy do you two have my number! You're right though. I really have to work harder on becoming comfortable with small steps. I'm such a dreamer that the fear of failure paralizes me and the result turns out to be failure anyway so... I really appreciate your words of kindness. I've been good in the last two days. I've been studying and I have not been overeating. Hopefully, I'll stay on the track.

Kayemu

Totally been there and many times myself to.
I read old journals I used to keep when I was trying to lose weight and when I was just not trying at all.
And it made me see exactly what I was doing. Giving up on myself. And not taking care of myself. I always put everyone in front of myself. And this time im not. I cant take care of anyone if I dont take care of myself.
Thats why I used to put myself down and just tell myself your never going to be like those other women. I dont want to now.. Now I want to be me. I want to be just me.
It takes a lot of sweat and maybe some tears but it can happen it can be done. I have several more pounds to go but I know some day I will get there. You just got to keep going. Day by day .
Hang in there dont give up on yourself .. You are worth every bit of effort you can spare.