I'm in need of some encouragement...I'm feeling really hopeless and frustrated right now. I'm 5'4 and 213lbs...I restarted weight watchers again on Monday and I've been doing OK...I just don't know what my problem is I've tried so many times before and I'm having a hard time getting motivated again and I feel like nothing is ever going to change, it is so hard to change my eating, especially when people around you are eating junk food and things like that and you don't always have healthy options around...
And I'm having such a hard time getting back into exercise, all I've done this week is: 20 minute walk with my BF, 15 minutes bike ride with my brother, and I rearranged and cleaned my room for an hour (if that counts), I could have done SO much more too because I'm not in school right now (I want to go to college I just don't know what for yet), and I'm not working because I'm currently looking for a job but not many places are hiring, so I had time.
I have a gym membership but I never get around to going, I don't like going alone and I have no way there, my mom hired herself a personal trainer so she has been going with her personal trainer & her and I don't have time to go together alot because she works. I don't have any exercise machines at home except an old ski machine my mom bought at a garage sale but it hurts my feet and knees, we have videos but alot of them I can't do because their too high tense for me right now and I feel light headed and alot involve jumping moves which I can't do (I wear a DD bra...) Sooo I only have a couple I can do and doing the same thing everyday gets boring and repetetive and I dont care much for standing infront of a TV watching someone else, I wish I had money for a treadmill but their so darn expensive...I just don't know...
I know that I have things I can do and I'm making up excuses..it just feels hopeless to me. I always come up with things Im going to do, exercise routines I will follow and things I will try to do and not do and it all seems so easy but I can never stick to it, whats WRONG with me? I know WHAT to do and I plan it all out and it just seems I always set myself up for disaster..