Motivation and Procrastination
 

I am feeling a bit frustrated and hopeless with myself. I was all positive and motivated and made positive changes to my diet and habits then gradually slipped off. I think part of it was that I felt a bit hopeless, after I started working out I noticed my mobility has dropped a bit. I'm 26, and I thought I was overweight but when I put my stats in an NHS calculator a few weeks ago it has gone up to overweight. (I'm 76.4kg, 1.52m), making my BMI 33). This weekend I am going away to do my bridal shopping, wedding is in December and I feel like nothing will look good on me and am dreading it.

I know I need to get back into the healthy routines so that I feel good, and because I know I enjoy eating healthily cooked food and the feeling of a good workout. I'm not sure what my problem is with sticking to this but I am really not digging how I feel right now so rather than moan I should do something about it too. That said, after this post I will do a workout before I sleep since I am up anyway and it's better to restart now than later.

Okay, I did an hours kettlebell workout. It felt good but will probably be sore tomorrow as I haven't done it in a while. I guess it was a mind over matter thing. I will take it with me when I go away this weekend because even if my legs and bum are sore I can do the core exercises.

I think it's definitely a mind over matter thing! Or sometimes I have to turn my mind off because it tries to talk me out of doing anything productive and good. If I need to, I "zombie" my way through it by keep telling myself I have to do it, I must drag myself out of the apartment and do it! Even if I dreaded it, and didn't want to do it, the after-effects of feeling accomplished is a great high. If I want to feel that way bad enough, I'll have to keep going!

Congratulations on your upcoming wedding btw!!! That's so wonderful <3

Thank you! I don't know what I was worrying about. I weighed myself and I've lost 2kg, if I had been on top of things it would be closer to 8 by now, but something is better than nothing and at least I didn't gain anything. I also found the perfect outfit and there is space to have it altered as I plan to be slimmer by then. So yay! Thank you for your support, I am back to being on my game :D