So I am a new member of this website not sure how this works but ah will see. I am eighteen years old and my height is 5'4 I am recently trying to get back on track with my diet and fitness. I am having trouble. I restricted and excercised nonstop for 3 months straight lost to much weight.. weighing in at about 114lbs. I knew this was too skinny for someone my age and height so I ate more and more I was happy weighing 120.. however now I am in a cycle of a binge eating disorder .. for 2 months straight I haven't gotten it under control . I eat until my stomach hurts.. I don't even want the food But I can't help myself...I have almost gained everything back weighing probably 135 or 140
I try to keep off the scale numbers for me arnt to important because I know muscle weighs more then fat but this is all fat I'm getting back...I just want to be healthy again. I've never felt so lost with my relationship with food. I want to be normal. I keep telling myself I'll do better tomorrow but then I do it again and I'm losing it mentally and physically. I feel like a failure. I need help any tips to stop this before it's to late And becomes a bad habit for the future.




