If you look in the mirror, and you still see the same person as so many pounds ago, you need to really work at how you regard yourself. You've got 6 cheering bananas. There's no way you still look the same, but the fact you don't see it, has a lot to do with your hatred towards yourself.
Just know there's nothing to be ashamed of.
Not for the weight, not for the fact you are on a diet and also not because you dislike yourself.
You are not the only who gained weight and "let themselves go". You are not the only who is on a diet. You're not the only one who needs to lose so much weight. And you are not the only one with a distorted image of self.
I think it is time for you to go shopping or go and do something special. Buy a REALLY nice outfit, get your hair, nails and yes, even make-up done. Go and eat at a fancy restaurant with your hubby, looking that shiny (you know, fancy, but one that offers mostly healthy meals and try to pick what you'll eat BEFORE that night!). Then, if you can, spend a romantic evening with your husband. A hotel, with a spa, if it must. Get a massage or let your husband give you one. Pamper yourself and forget about the girl you left at home, because in that fancy dress, you're a movie star.
And if you have a supportive husband, talk to him about this and let him point out what he likes about you and don't be shy to ask him about something physical! I'm quite sure he'll love your eyes or your hair or your smile... And next time in front of a mirror, look at that what he loves about you and force yourself into believing that no one has such lovely eyes (or whatever) than you.
Stop focusing on what you dislike, no matter how much you hate it. Because I'm quite sure you are a wonderful person.