Hey there 3FC!
So I've recently restarted dieting (god knows how many times I've done this), the good thing is I'm only gained 6lbs from my lowest weight before the holidays, when I was 169. I feel at a loss at what to do now, I have started eating clean (low carb, lots of veggies and protein, greek yogurt) last 2 weeks and only a lb down. I understand I can't expect any big changes, but I already feel tired of dieting if that makes any sense?
My main motivator right now, I have a wedding in May and I'm going to see family members I haven't seen in 10 years! Last time I visited, they were so mean to be about my weight (and I weighed much less than I weigh now!!) it made me cry. They've criticized every part of my life, education (I used to be pre-med but decided at the end of college to do public health), my weight (big one!), my love life (the reason I'm not "marryable" is due to my weight which caused my looks to go bad, and my education) I was depressed and I told myself I would never let anyone get to me like that ever again, but here I am 10 years later scared as **** to go back there. In all honestly, when I was younger hearing these things from family really hurt, but I didn't let it get to me, but when I go back there, it will seem like things got worse (same job, higher weight) ugh I'm so sick of it! So I'm using this negative energy to kind of fuel my weight loss if that makes sense.
I honestly want to go to this wedding looking really good!! I know I can't reach goal, but what do you think would be realistic? I was thinking, assuming I'm very diligent, 10lbs/month? By the end of April I could be 144 lbs? This seems completely unrealistic to me, mostly because I haven't weighed that in ages, but is it possible? I don't want to be disappointed if I haven't reached the exact number but I want to know I'm reaching for something that is actually attainable.
I'm walking a mile a day for exercise, should I change something there? I feel like nothing is exciting in my diet plan this time, it's so dull and boring and just blehhh. Sometimes I feel like I'm *supposed* to be this weight because it doesn't budge at all!!
Anyway, would love to hear any advice you guys have. Sorry for the sob story of a post!