Today and yesterday are the first days since I've been dieting (this time) that I feel like I've binged.
Now, I've eaten over maintenance, but these past two days I have eaten without regard (or almost rebelliously) against counting a calorie.
I can't say I feel out of control as much as I feel like a spoiled child that is tired of seeing a toy locked away from them that they can't play with.
I have access to food, can afford to eat (Thank God) and I'm an adult. I want to eat and darn it, I will. That's not my motto, I just mean that is the feel of it.
I bet you I've eaten close to 3000 calories today. That is beyond crazy for me. Heck, that was crazy even when I was at a higher weight.
Now, I know part of it is PMS but I PMS every month and it doesn't turn into this.
I know it's mostly psychological b/c I even took a diet pill and that didn't stop me from eating. I wasn't hungry, but honestly, I don't suppose I was eating b/c I was hungry.
I haven't given up.
I don't feel like I'm tortured or depressed.
I don't even feel really bad about it.
I just want it to be over and be in the mindset to lose weight again.
I wish there was like a vitamin you could take to prevent it. LOL