Hello, I am obviously new here... so... hello again! [My name is Teresa] I hope I can make some real progress happen by joining this website, both for myself and all of you. This is going to be one helluva first impression (whiny, typical teenager, etc etc etc).
As you can tell by the title, I've been on a weight loss battle since I was 8 years old, simple math tells you I am 16 years old. Yes, since I was 8 years old, I've been worrying about my weight. I probably should give it rest, since I was probably doomed to be overweight. Its like I can try all I want but nothing will be lost.
I figured this summer I would lose some weight just so I wouldn't feel as crappy during my last year of high school as I've felt throughout all my years in school. I am having a tough time, given I feel enormous guilt when discussing these things with my mother or my friends. Discussing delicate things such as my weight is only easy with complete strangers!! (great logic)
Anyways, since about May I've been finding workout videos on the internet and doing them from time to time, I've done Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred but stopped halfway through the second level because I felt so worn out, probably because I decreased my caloric intake. I started up doing other workouts sporadically, but I feel so fatigued when doing them and I get dizzy and all that fun stuff! Again, possibly by the amount of calories I've cut back, but that's all apart of this whole game.
But not only have I been doing that, but I've been going on about 45-70 minute walks every night since about March? Maybe April? I know I've missed a few days due to the weather, I get really angry when its humid and rainy and I'm walking through it. Plus, I've been trying to get at least 10 minute runs into the end of my walks but since I have asthma its difficult for me to keep the full 10 minutes going without panting and nearing passing out. So no intense running until I figure out what I can do about that.
Just last night I decided to start bumping it up to 2 hours, and I've decided to start talking walks at midnight as well. Totaling it up to 4 hours and maybe some workout routines earlier in the day.
I am just so desperate to lose weight, but given the fact I live with my skinny mother, who has had no weight problems in her life and can eat whatever she wants and still be relatively skinny (the only fat she has on her body is in her stomach, and that is due simply to age and her drinking). So she buys all the crappy food for herself and I'm left to test my willpower and turn it down; which I should already have managed to do by this point, but events in my life have left me with a body full of fat and a mind filled with horrible thoughts.
Eh, okay, I'll stop there, I've already written a novel, so I might as well cut to the chase, I am just wondering, what normally keeps everyone here going? What things do you tell yourself, or videos you watch, or people... or... just anything that kind of keeps you to keep going. I really feel like the majority of my lack of strength during workout videos is all because I just don't have enough willpower to keep myself going, giving up is way too easy and way too tempting, and I fall for it every time.
---- I'm sorry if this has already been talked about in the past, and its annoying when someone else brings it up yet again without bothering to look first. Maybe my """story""" per se is just a bit different? ...Maybe...?