So I joined this forum in despiration of some support and for people that "get" how I have been feeling latley. I have never joined a forum community before so I am looking forward to the experence.
So I will give you a bit of my story.....
All through high school I was around 120-130 (and thought I was fat then lol teenagers). Once I moved out with my now husband when I was 22 I started packing on pounds.....wheather it was the freedom to eat junk for dinner or the fact that I was leaving my teenage years. I held steady at 160-165 for the last 5 years or so, but last year was my wedding so I was bound and determined to lose some weight.....and stressed! So I counted calories and the wight seemed to fall off, however I think it was do to running around planning a wedding and being super stressed...not from calorie counting at all.
So I got down to 145 for the wedding was looking and feeling great! But not long after I signed the marriage certifacate and thing calmed down I started to gain again. So by December last year I was back up to 160....then in January I decided to make a huge life change and quit smoking! It was a challenge but I have been smoke free for 4 months now.....but there was one big side effect was pounds!!!! I put on 15lbs in four months and I feel awful.
I haven't stopped putting pounds on either seems like every week is another pound, probably cause sweets make me happy for a minute or so. I know my current weight might not seem like much to some, but for me it is totally uncomfortable and make me very self conscious. None of my clothes fit anymore I only have 2 pair of pant that I can wear. I have a wonderful husband who tries to support me but doesn't understand how crappy I feel and thinks I am just being crazy. He also has an insane metabolism and can eat cookies and cheeseburgers every single day and not gain a friggin pound.....so furstrating. I am eating chicken and salad everday while he scarfs burgers and fries, makes it harder for me, but I can't tell him what to eat...plus he is very picky and will only eat like 4 different things.
Anyways that my storey and I really hope I can build up the will power and start making some changes in my daily life. I feel rotten inside and feel like it may start to affect my marriage soon as I have lost my sexiness and I am rarely happy anymore.
Thanks for lending an ear!