even though I now look at a few people who I thought were "thinner than me" and now they are bigger than me...I still have a very warped image of myself in my head...ive recently seen a few photos of me that I didn't know were being taken and I do look smaller than I think I look
weirdly enough if I KNOW the photo is being taken, I look at it and see all my trouble spots and still think i'm awfully heavy
but if I DONT KNOW the photo was being taken, I later see it and sometimes do a double-take like "is that ME?" ...."well no one else there had a bright pink raincoat!" ...there was a pic taken of me by the local newspaper (well not OF me but I was in it) and I seriously didn't think it was me at first...and then the photo was picked up by other newspapers around the state and re-published *sigh*
this weekend I was running on a trail and my DH took a brief video of me and I later looked at it and I DONT LOOK FAT(!!!) it was the weirdest thing!